Thursday, April 21, 2011

being patient

This has kinda been a down week for me.  Nothing major has really gone wrong… I have just been depressed. Today is a little better but today, I keep focusing on the fact that I am single.  I have such a strong desire to be settled down, be married, have a family, a happy little home. I yearn for that. 

I am tired of “dating”. Tired of getting to know someone… get involved… only to realize that they are not the one.  I am tired of the let downs and the not knowing if he likes me or is he seeing someone else.  I am just tired of it. I am tired of doing everything alone.  I am tired of struggling alone.  

I want a man to take care and I want a man to take care of me.  I don’t want to have to worry about my house falling apart all the time. Or having to mow the yard. Or if I am too tired to cook dinner or do laundry, it would be nice to have someone there to help.

Maybe its me… maybe I expect too much from someone?  I dunno. 

I know I had all that once…  had exactly what I want now.  And I walked away from it. Now it feels like I will never have that again.

I am trying so hard to be patient.  I know God has a plan. I know God is making me ready for my husband and my husband ready for me.  I am trying so hard to be patient.. but today, today its hitting me hard.

I will continue to grow in my relationship with Christ…  I will continue to wait.  I will continue.

And I have faith that someday… (hopefully soon) I will meet my husband… and know he is the one.  And settle down finally.

God Bless
Overthinking Mama

7 comments:

  1. I feel the same way that you do all the time.

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  2. Sorry you are feeling depressed. I know how you are feeling. Been there done that. It took me 45 years, 2 marriages and divorces to finally find that special someone. I am sure you will not take that long..he'll come..when you least expect it...Promise!

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  3. I'm sorry you're feeling down. Keep your chin up and your nose in your Bible and before you know it God will decide the timing is right. God bless you.

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  4. Oh wow, almost feels like you plucked those thoughts right out of my head! It's hard to do it all alone and it can get really discouraging sometimes (I know!!). Hang in there, mama!!

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  5. There are still great guys out there. Keep up the patience and you will be rewarded. :-)

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  6. God has a plan for you. Be patient..

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  7. Sometimes I am so there with you! Right now, I am content to be where I am, most days. But honestly, I know that longing to be part of a marriage only too well, that impatience while waiting on God to bring it to pass. Praying for you, friend!

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