Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Complete Fath

Matthew 6:25-27
" That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life- whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn't life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don't plant or harvest or store food in barns, for you heavenly Father feeds them. And aren't you far more valuable to him than they are? Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?"

At church Sunday we were given a great message, though I really can't remember what it was all about... after something our Pastor said, my mind started wondering.  I started thinking about how this is the first time in my life that I have put my full faith in God.  100% faith in Him.  I hate to admit it... but I may always have faith... there is always a small amount of doubt that I have in the back of my head. :-( But right now... I have full faith in Him.  

For the first time in my life, I am jobless.  I am jobless and I have no job prospects.  Also, for the first time in my life, I can say I am truly happy.  Crazy right?!  I have no security right now and yet I am happier now than I was when I was working.  

I have complete faith in the Lord that everything will be ok.  Honestly tho, this is something I never really was that worried about. Not that I wouldn't ever lose my job, because I have been thinking about the fact that it would happen for at least the last 3 years. We were already downsizing and my department was doing the worst out of all of them, I had the least amount of seniority and I was the youngest person there, so it would be easier for me to move on and find something new than it would be for some of the others...so always in the back of my mind, I knew eventually it would happen. 

My one friend would always ask me what I would do, if I got let go...  I always told him, I don't know... but it will be ok.  I always knew it would be ok. 

I am getting unemployment but it doesn't pay all the bills... but I'll figure it all out.  I don't get medical but the kids do. I don't hardly get any food assistance, but it will all work out.  God is good. I know he is using this time for something good. He is using this time to help me grow... to help make me more into the woman He wants me to be.  In the past month I can say that I have grown closer to Him than I ever have before in my life.  I am happier than I have ever been in my life also. 

I am now single and jobless... two biggest securities in my mind... and I have neither. I have nothing but God for my security and that is exactly how He wants it to be. He wants me to trust in Him. Not partly trust with a back up plan in mind, but whole, fully, and completely trust in Him to bring me thru everything. 

I know He will too. I know 100% I will get thru everything. It may not end up the way I want or think it should, but it will be ok. I will be a better person because of it. I will grown because of the path I am on. I will be closer to being the woman God wants me to be.  I am closer now than ever to knowing what and where God wants me to be.  I have full faith in Him!!! 

When my mind stopped wandering for a moment in church I heard my pastor mention Matthew 6:25-27 (read above)... I opened my bible and read its and it took my breath away. It hit home. It was perfect for me.  Amazing how God works, aint it?? 

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama