Today is the first day of a very difficult holiday for me.
The Fourth of July holiday was one that I always spent with my dad.
Every year my Grandma would have a cook out at her house and then we would watch the fire works from her dock over the lake. This will be the first year that we will not be doing that. Thank goodness she's not having the cook out this year because I am not sure I would be able to handle going over there with out my dad.
Fireworks have always been something special to me. There is something magical about them... so watching them people I love make those moments even more special. Watching fireworks gives me the feels.... and this year- it takes on a whole new meaning.
I am already feeling down and just thinking about this holiday- the first 4th with out my dad is just pulling me down even farther.
I am trying to focus on spending time with my husband and my kids and my family and not stay on the thoughts of my dad not being here. Focus on the love that surrounds me and know that my dad is over head watching down on us enjoying the fireworks too.
Have a happy and safe Fourth of July!!!
Blessings N Love