Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Tell All Tuesday

Must Answers: 

Name/Nickname/AKA:  Sarah/Overthinking Mama
Blog Address (if have one): you are here. www.overthinkingmama.com
Age (approx) 28
Occupation: super mom


Pick at least 10 questions to answer. You can have more, but you must at least have 10.  Answer with much thought and detail- remember, we are getting to you know (its a tell all!) 
·                     What is one of your happiest memories?  I WOULD SAY IT’S A CONTINUEING MEMORY… EVERY TIME MY KIDS TELL ME THEY LOVE ME OR GIVE ME A HUG OR KISS FOR NO REASON.
·                     What’s one of the most meaningful gifts you’ve received?
·                     What’s one of the most loving things someone has done for you?
·                     What’s one of the most loving things you’ve ever done for someone?
·                     What music, poetry, art, books, or movies have most inspired you and why?
·                     What's one of the best places you've ever traveled? I WOULD HAVE TO SAY SAN FRANSCISCO. I WENT THERE WHEN I WAS 13 AND I JUST REMEMBER LOVING IT SOOO MUCH. I CAN’T WAIT TO GO BACK SOMEDAY.
·                     What's one place you'd still like to visit and why? I WOULD LOVE TO GO TO HAWAII. IT JUST SEEMS SO BEAUTIFUL THERE.
·                     If you had only 6 months left to live, what would you want to be sure to experience? MY FAMILY. I WOULD WANT TO EXPERIENCE AS MUCH TIME AND LOVE WITH MY FAMILY AS I POSSIBLY COULD.
·                     What are you most grateful for? Why?
·                     What’s one of the nicest things you’ve ever done for yourself?
·                     What's the best compliment anyone has ever paid you?
·                     What do you value most in yourself?
·                     What contribution in your life are you most proud of?
·                     What were you doing 10 years ago? 
·                     Where do you want to be in 10 years? 
·                     what is your biggest pet peeve?
·                     what is your dream vacation?
·                     What is your favorite website or blog and why?
·                     When you are feeling down- what do you do to cheer yourself up?
·                     When is the last time you told someone you loved them and mean it? who was it? MY KIDS WHEN I DROPPED THEM OFF AT THEIR SCHOOLS THIS MORNING.. AND OF COURSE I MENT IT. I DON’T SAY IT UNLESS I MEAN IT J
·                     Where were you on 9/11/01? I WAS FINDING OUT I WAS PREGO WITH MY SON.
·                     Are you waiting on something? What?
·                     Favorite time of year? why? FALL. I LOVE THE CRISP COOL AIR, THE SMELLS, THE COLORS, THE CHANGES, HALLOWEEN
·                     Do you have or want any tattoos? I HAVE 8 TATTOOS. I DEF. WANT MORE!! I AM JUST TRYING TO SAVE UP SOME MONEY NOW.
·                     what is the last thing you cried about? IT WAS A WEEK AGO WHEN MY BOYFRIEND HAD TO GO HOME AFTER STAYING WITH ME FOR ABOUT 2MONTHS. L
·                     Were you named after anyone? who?
·                     What is one wild and crazy thing you would do right now if given the chance?
·                     Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Were you driving, someone else driving, or parked?
·                     When you looked in the mirror today what did you think?
·                     What has been your favorite age so far?
·                     Do you look forward to getting older? YEA I DO. I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH AND I THINK I AM A BETTER PERSON NOW THAN I WAS BACK WHEN I WAS YOUNGER.. I AM SURE I WILL BECOME AN EVEN BETTER PERSON IN THE FUTURE. J
·                     Do you wash your hands every single time you use the restroom?
·                     Whats your life motto? LIVE AND LEARN/YOU CAN’T CONTROL WHAT SOMEONE ELSE DOES.. NO POINT IN STRESSING OVER IT.
·                     If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? MAKING SURE THAT THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT THEM.  (AND THAT MY DAUGHTER ISN’T TO LIVE WITH HER FATHER)
·                     If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the body or the mind of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?
·                     Would you accept twenty years of extraordinary happiness and fulfillment if it meant you had to die at the end of the period? 
·                     If the person you were engaged to marry had an accident and became a paraplegic, would you go through with the marriage or back out of it? I WOULD GO THRU WITH IT.. IF I AM MARRYING SOMEONE.. I AM MARRYING THEM FOR WHO THEY ARE.. NOT FOR WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE.. NOT FOR WHAT THEY HAVE WRONG OR RIGHT WITH THEM… BUT FOR THE PERSON THEY ARE AND HOW THEY MAKE ME FEEL.
·                     Would you be willing to go to a slaughterhouse and kill a cow? 
·                     Would you be willing to decrease your life expectancy by 5 years if you could become extremely attractive?
·                     If your friends and acquaintances were willing to bluntly tell you what they really think of you, would you want them to? YEA. AS LONG AS THEY DIDN’T TAKE IT PERSONALLY OR HOLD IT AGAINST ME IF I DIDN’T ALWAYS LIKE WHAT THEY HAD TO SAY OR TAKE THE ADIVSE THAT THEY GIVE.
Would you be willing to give up all television for the next 5 years if it would induce someone to provide for 1,000 starving children in Indonesia? YEA. I ALREADY DON’T WATCH TV ONLY MOVIES… I THINK I COULD LIVE WITH OUT THAT FOR 5 YEARS. J

Monday, August 30, 2010

New member

I found this little guy under my car last night. Haven't named him yet.. but I did make him an awesome lil house. Gotta pick up some crickets here in the next few days...

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Wth!



I have too many strange bugs in my house!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Lil man



On his first day of school.

Aaaahhh!



This was in my pants. Glad I seen it before I put them on!!

Story Time Thursday- 5

That week went by so slow. I wanted it to be Thursday so bad. Izzy and I were going to go out karaoke-ing again and Ramon was supposed to come. 
Finally Thursday came. I emailed Ramon in the morning and asked him if he was still going to come out with us that night. He said of course. Nothing would stop him tonight.  I text Izzy and asked him again. He said yup, it was all good. I got excited!  
As soon as I got home, I started going through my closet trying to find just the right outfit. Ugh. I didn't have anything. I decided to run out to the mall. I called JoAnn and asked her if she wanted to run out to the mall with me. She said sure, so I went over and picked her up. 
Once I picked her up, I told her that I was going out singing with Izzy and that Ramon was supposed to meet us up there. She instantly got an attitude. 
"Why is Ramon going out with you? You don't like him do you. You know he's married!!" 
I just looked at her. 
"JoAnn you are the one who introduced me to him. We are just friends. I know he is married. That is a situation that I really don't want to get into. At all" 
" Are you still sleeping with Izzy?" she asked me almost jealously. 
I told her No. I hadn't slept with him in months. We had a few issues and had been able to stay friends. But that was a line that I didn't want to cross again.  
"Well you know he likes you right?" JoAnn said to me with annoyance in her voice. 
" JoAnn. We are just friends. Izzy knows that." 
I was starting to regret asking her to come shopping with me. Maybe I would had been better off just coming by myself. At least less stressed. GGRRR!! 
I finally found a cute outfit that I liked and left the mall and dropped JoAnn off. Luckily she was on the phone most of the time with her boyfriend. They were arguing over something stupid. As always.  But today I was very thankful for that. 
After I got home, I started thinking about Ramon. Ugh. I shouldn't be getting this excited to see him. Every time my phone went off, I was hoping it was him texting me and would get disappointed if it wasn't. I got butterflies just thinking about him.  This wasn't what I wanted. At least not with him and definitely not now. I was just recently divorced. I wasn't ready for this. 
I finished getting dressed and picked up Izzy. We were supposed to meet Ramon up there. He text me and said he would be a little late. I was thankful for that. I wanted to have a few drinks in me before he showed up so I wouldn't be so nervous. Ugh why was I like this. 


Ramon showed up about an hour later. I was on my 3rd drink and feeling pretty darn good.  When he walked up to the table, I just lit up.  He looked so good. And he had a big smile on his face. 
"Hey beautiful. Wow. you look great!" he said to me as he hugged me.  Man he smelled good. Not like anything I had ever smelled, not a normal cologne. I asked him what it was. 
He said it was Jamaican oils. His great grandmother was from Jamaica and when he was little she would send his dad these oils all the time. He also mentioned that he had a really hard time finding them in the states so he doesn't wear it very often. 
I got up to sing. I was nervous. The drinks didn't seem to take that edge off this time like they normally do.  I sang my favorite song, Traveling soldier by Dixie Chics. The song I always sang.  I knew it by heart.  
Afterward I went and sat down. Izzy was just shaking his head.
"damn girl. you sing good. I hate the Dixie Chics. But when you sing it I like them" I blushed a little bit. 
And of course Ramon had to pipe in. "Yea, you sang good Sally"  And then he got up and went and got us all some more drinks. 



Monday, August 23, 2010

Im back!!! :-(



Well Praise the Lord!! I am back...  He answered my prayers and got us all back safe and sound!!! 
And its back to reality today.. :-(  We had a ton of fun down in Florida... I really didn't want to come back!! On our way down we stopped in N.C. so baby girl could meet her family there for the first time. We got to see her sister, Grandma, Grandpa, Aunt, 2 nephews and her Uncle. It was a really good time. I am glad that I am still close with her family (my ex's family) so I was able to take her to see them otherwise I don't know when she would have been able to.
We got into Florida about 8am on Monday.  Met my parents for breakfast and then went on to the condo.. It was so beautiful there!!! We were supposed to be able to check in around noon... but there was some confusion.. and we couldn't check in till 4pm!!! ugh. We literally sat around the lobby till then... and I am sure me and the BF stunk... sitting in a car for 2days.. eewww... lol. 
After we got in and got settled we went to eat.. then... I don't remember... maybe swimming?  We were exhausted to say the least by that point.
Tuesday we spent most of the day at the pool. My BF bought us all "fun passes"... which included inner tubes for the pool and the lazy river, putt putt, the hippo slide (a 40ft tall 164ft long inflatable slide), rock climbing, and bungee jumping thing for the kids...   It was all so much fun!!!
Friday we got to go to an all you can eat buffet with different animal characters.. We really didn't want to leave.  After check out, we went and visited the BFs uncle and aunt. They were really nice. I was really glad to meet them. :-)  Then we headed home... and let me tell you, by the time we got to the BF's house I was beat and not feeling good at all... but it was so worth it!!!
I am so happy that my mom had us all come on vaca with her.. and I am glad that my BF and his daughter were able to come along too!! It was a really really great time!!! 
  

me and the bf! :-) 




The kids at Downtown Disney






the bf lounging by the pool 
my daughter family (and mine too)
her sis and aunt
                                                  

Today was baby girls first day of school!!! She starts preschool. She looks so sad in all the pictures. I was crying all the way to work today, it was so sad and happy at the same time. 

I can't wait to go and pick her up so I can see how her day went. 
After I pick her up, I have to run over the the college and find out something about my financial aide... gggrrrr.. I am having so many issues regarding it. I am supposed to start my classes today, but I haven't paid for them yet nor do I have any books. So I don't really know whats going to happen...  :-( 


Guess I really am back to reality. 

Friday, August 20, 2010

Realization Friday

I've come to realize: 

~ i will only be as good as i let myself be

~ I can not let my happiness depend on anyone other than myself

~ at almost 30 years of age- i am still trying to figure out who i am

~ that i need to make lists to stay orgainized

~ that I have so many plans for the fall... its overwhelming and i am not even doing them yet! 

~ my daughter has very expensive taste... like $50 an outfit expensive.. OH and she's 3!!! 


If you have any realizations.. please send them to me for next weeks post! thank you! !

overthinkingmama@gmail.com

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

I so want a tattoo!!!

I have been wanting a tattoo for a few months now! 
I can't wait till I have a few extra dollars to go and get one done... well it'll probably be at least $100.  
I drew up what I want... and I love it. I am proud of myself for acutally being able to draw that nice! lol. But I may have the design modified a bit by the tattoo artist before I get it done... just to make sure it looks "perfect" on me.  
I want this: 




on my shoulder.. like the round part of my shoulder.. going down my arm a bit.. and the bee to be just below my collar bone. I love it.  


I have 8 other tattoos that I love.. but I still want more, they are addicting. 


These are what I have (in no paticular order): 


This one is for my daughter: 

For my son: 

I got this one when I was 18 for my cat that died: 
I got this one 2yrs ago:
one of my latest ones: 
My other lastest: 
my very first tat.. when i was 17:

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Tell All Tuesday-4

  • Peachy gave me such great answers to so many questions... I had to do a 2 part for her!!  Thank you Peachy!! 

    Name/Nickname/AKA: 
    Blog Address (if have one):
    Age (approx)
    Occupation:
    ThePeachy1 @ beingpeachy  aka Sandi
    think 21 with a couple decades of experience
    Former Corporate Suit, Mom, Wife, and always the village idiot

  • When you are feeling down- what do you do to cheer yourself up?
  • Facebook, twitter, or email my friends and fellow bloggers on the internet. I used to skype a friend of mine in the UK and he would sing songs and stay up forever. But his career took off ( woohoo)  and honestly it's hard to be "down" when you are surrounded by thousands of hilarious women.  The internet has been my life line.
  • When is the last time you told someone you loved them and mean it? who was it?
  • There is literally not an hour I don't tell someone I love them, a phone call or email to my daughter, my husband, my dad,  a friend who needs to know it, and then of course my little prince, he's a luvin bunny and we say it and mean it and hug  around 20+ times a day. He's 9 and yes he has no issues with hugging and loving me even in public and at school.
  • Where were you on 9/11/01? 
  • Oh man I was at the princes 8 week check up with the pediatrician. We lived in Tampa and Pres Bush was there reading to an Elementary school we had been warned that he would be at a school but not which one and ordered not to check out or come to the schools due to security. In the Dr's office the waiting room TV showed the first plane hitting it looked like a little private plane like a tour plane and that's what the news was saying,  I finished there and went  to the a&p to get some groceries and was in the freezer aisle when over the loud speaker they said, " a second plane has hit the world trade center, america is under attack"  the people in the same aisle as me looked like they were out of a movie, one lady collapsed and a man just stood there with tears rolling down his face.  I left my cart right there and drove to my childrens schools and removed them without even checking them out, I even drove up on the lawn at the Elementary school.  I wanted them with me, as a military child of a Veteran and a woman who married a career military man.  I knew the threats all too well,  and if we were under attack and the president was at my kids school, my kid would NOT be anywhere near that kind of target.
  • Are you waiting on something? What?
  • Favorite time of year? why?
  • Do you have or want any tattoos?
  • what is the last thing you cried about?
  • Were you named after anyone? who?
  • What is one wild and crazy thing you would do right now if given the chance?
  • Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Were you driving, someone else driving, or parked?
  • When you looked in the mirror today what did you think?  its nearly noon and I haven't even looked in a mirror. I don't need to. I know how I feel and I am pretty sure I remember how I look.  I don't usually need to do that anymore, I think I outgrew the need to constantly stare in the mirror for affirmation of my worthiness or declaration of the reasons I was not perfect.  It took me a very long time to love myself enough to not worry about mirrors and scales. I thank my husband for helping me evolve into a non needy strong woman.
  • What has been your favorite age so far?
  • Do you look forward to getting older?
  • Grandchildren.  Honestly. Corny right?  but I would really like to see the little ones my kids will produce, to love and spoil them, to have them climb on my lap to have me read, to share stories of their parents exploits and lessons from my parents and grandparents.
  • Do you wash your hands every single time you use the restroom?
  • Yeah I am a super hand washing germaphobe person. I even have the motion sensor soap dispensers in all 3 bathrooms and the kitchen and outside near the hose. Yeah super freak right?  I know.  Don't get me started on my poultry phobias OMG BLEACH EVERYTHING 300 TIMES.
  • Whats your life motto?
  • Life isn't a job, it's a journey, enjoy it and be peachy.
  • If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone?
  • If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the body or the mind of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?
  • As someone with a complicated cognitive medical condition, I will slap anyone that says body. because I can tell you all from experience, it doesn't matter how good you look, if you can't communicate or remember your life is a living hell.
  • Would you accept twenty years of extraordinary happiness and fulfillment if it meant you had to die at the end of the period? 
  • If the person you were engaged to marry had an accident and became a paraplegic, would you go through with the marriage or back out of it?
  • Would you be willing to go to a slaughterhouse and kill a cow?  
  • Would you be willing to decrease your life expectancy by 5 years if you could become extremely attractive?
  • I am extremely attractive already, does this mean I am going to die early? OMG 
  • If your friends and acquaintances were willing to bluntly tell you what they really think of you, would you want them to?
  • My real friends, do and always have, that's how I chose those that become closest. Pure honestly pure love and pure friendship.  
  • Would you be willing to give up all television for the next 5 years if it would induce someone to provide for 1,000 starving children in Indonesia?

Monday, August 16, 2010

Great for bloggers!!

TI got bored and went on Cafe Press... I looked up blogging wear... I found some great things... I so want some of these...  


Oval Stickerlive laugh love then tweet about it Sticker (Oval


Bloggers Threat Bumper Sticker


I am so getting this for my son in a T-shirt!! 
mommy blog t shirt Rectangle Sticker
Speak Up Blog Bumper StickerOval Sticker
I so want to get this one for me!! 


Issues 3" Lapel Sticker (48 pk)
I am getting this for my boyfriend: lol. 
In Love With A Blogger Oval Sticker






Blog StickerBehave Yourself Bumper Sticker

When I seen this one... I thought of Midwestern Mama 
Read My Blog Rectangle Sticker
I google myselfI blog about you Rectangle StickerBlog Material Bumper Sticker

These are just a few of the ones I love. You can get it as a Tshirt, bumpersticker, bag etc.. you name it.. they can probably make it. 
So def. take a minute and check out cafepress.com and see some of the awesome things they have!! 

Sunday, August 15, 2010

The stepmom

My son is at his father's for the week... He didn't want to go. He doesn't like going over there too much...  He loves his dad and his family over there... but he feels that his step-mom is mean.  
I am not really sure how exactly to handle this situation... 
Lil Man has told me about it, my bf, my parents... but not his dad.  I've talked to his dad a little bit about it when his dad has came out and asked me why Lil Man doesn't want to go over there... but that conversation didn't end well...  He was very defensive. 


I keep telling Lil Man that he needs to talk to his father about what bothers him. He said that his dad already knows... I've tried to explain that just because I have told him.. It doesn't mean much. That his dad may think that I am just saying it so Lil Man doesn't have to go over there.. How do you explain that to a stubborn, hard headed 8yr old? 


His father has pretty much told me that if Lil Man doesn't want to come over... don't force him. I told him that Lil Man is not old enough to make that choice. He's 8! And that maybe he should sit down and talk to Lil Man about it. 


My heart goes out to Lil Man and his dad.. The situation is just not a good one.. but I really don't know what else to do...  I want to make it better for everyone.. but I really don't know how.  I don't want it to get to the point where my son starts acting out or something because of this. 


His father loves his very much and wants to see him as much as possible, which is fine with me... but I hate forcing him to go over there when he feels like he does. 


Any suggestions? 


** Lil Man's dad has a step daughter who's 6 and a son's who's 4
*** Lil Man's dad and wife have been married for 3 years
*** Lil Man's dad and I have been divorced for 6years
**** Lil Man's dad and I have a decent relationship