Well I have been married now for almost 3 weeks... Everyone keeps asking me: So do you feel different now that you are married?. The honest answer is really no. The MR. and I were already living a "married" life. We lived together. Had kids together. Did life together. I don't feel guilty about this now tho.. so I guess that's a difference. I don't have to feel guilty for having a child out of wedlock. I don't have to feel guilty for living in sin with a man I wasn't married to. I don't have to feel guilty for having sex with a man I wasn't married to. All of this has definitely been a weight lifted off of my shoulders.
This seem to have calmed down now too. I don't feel as stressed about getting everything thing together for the wedding. That on top of being a mom, working, trying to run a household seriously was wearing me down. Don't get me wrong. I still have my moments where I get stressed out, but not like I did a few weeks ago. I am hoping over the next few months things settle down even more and we fall in to a good routine with working, school, after school things, family, and other things in life.
Last night was such a wonderful night. We didn't have anywhere to go. Didn't have anything to do. So we were able to just enjoy each other. We snuggled up on the couch after dinner and watched The Voice. It was good.
I started a new job last week. I am a secretary for a church. The pay isn't much and the drive is far, but it is a job and I am hoping that maybe it will teach me new things, and eventually lead to something better. I still have my other job at the Nursing Home. I work both jobs part time which is nice cuz then I still get to be home with the kids most of the time and if I am not there then the MR. is. We also have his grandma and my mom babysitting baby M during the days while I am at the church job. So she is always with family.
Hopefully I will be able to start posting more... "fingers crossed"
Blessings N Love