Wednesday, January 11, 2012

a struggle

Its been 4 years now…  and I still look back and have no idea how I made it.   I’ve had friends come and ask me for advice… how did I manage and all I can tell them is by Gods grace I was able to some how survive.

When my daughter was just 6 months old, her father and I split up.  It was mutual… yet not. Lol. I knew deep down it was what was best because we just weren’t happy, but deep down, I didn’t want it.    Any who…

Financially… I was screwed.  I was so indebt from being with him and him being unemployed for 10 months. During which time I was on maternity leave having our daughter and it was also over Christmas. So everything in our life got put on MY credit cards.  When he left. That was it. No help. They were my problem.  $20,000 in debt.  Now MY debt. I joined Incharge Debt solutions and got on a payment plan with them.

This is where I was then.  I brought home $790 a pay. Every two weeks. 
These were my monthly bills:
House $750
Car $293
InCharge $344
Gas $65
Electric $65
Water $45
Sitter $400
Phone $60
Insurance $120
Total: $2141.00 a month.  I brought home $1580.00   CS- $400.00 a month.
Yea… No where close to being equal. And this didn’t include food, clothes or anything else in our life.

Till this day… I have no idea how I survived. I don’t know how I made ends meet. And there were even a few months where I paid my ex’s bills because he didn’t have the money to and they were still in my name.

The Lord helped me thru it. That is the only way I could have survived it all and not lost my car or my house or my sanity.   People ask how I got thru… God. Prayer. And Faith. That’s it.  At that time tho, I didn’t even realize I had that much faith. I mean I knew I did…. But not that in depth of faith… The Lord got me thru. The Lord provided for me.  He made life possible for me. 
 So right now, if you are struggling… don’t give up… pray a little bit harder.. know that God sees you. He’s there beside you. He loves you!

Blessings N  Love


  1. Very inspiring ! Thanks for sharing - I've often wondered myself - now I just sit back and say it's ok - I'll get through it just like I always to :)

    1. You are very welcome! I am glad you enjoyed it!!! God always has a way!!


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