I am now barely sleeping. I am depressed.
I am at the point where I don't want to do anything. I don't want to be around people. I just want to sit in my bed and cry and wait for this to be over.
I am so tired.
Tired of feeling like everything, everyday is a battle.
Tried of feeling like I am always struggling.. always alone.
Tired of feeling like I am going to burst into tears over EVERYTHING.
Tired of feeling like this.
There always seems to a million things that I need to get done... and as soon as I get some done.. there is a million more.
In every single possible way... I am tired.
I feel like a zombie anymore going thru life. Like I am doing everything that I am supposed to do... but its forced, its a battle.
I know God loves me. I know He is with me. I don't doubt that. I know that being a Christian and having strong faith does't eliminate me from these feelings, from these moments.
I just keep praying... and honestly anymore, I don't even know what I am praying for... I guess just happiness. I keep praying for happiness, because I am so tried of the sadness.
Monday, I go see the doctor and hopefully will get put on something for the depression. Monday can not come soon enough.
Blessings N Love