Wednesday, May 30, 2012

monday can't come soon enough

Monday can not come soon enough. Right now I am feeling like I am going crazy. Seriously.

I am now barely sleeping. I am depressed.

I am at the point where I don't want to do anything. I don't want to be around people. I just want to sit in my bed and cry and wait for this to be over.

I am so tired.

Tired of feeling like everything, everyday is a battle.
Tried of feeling like I am always struggling.. always alone.
Tired of feeling like I am going to burst into tears over EVERYTHING.
Tired of feeling like this.

There always seems to a million things that I need to get done... and as soon as I get some done.. there is a million more.  

In every single possible way... I am tired.

I feel like a zombie anymore going thru life.  Like I am doing everything that I am supposed to do... but its forced, its a battle.

I know God loves me. I know He is with me.  I don't doubt that. I know that being a Christian and having strong faith does't eliminate me from these feelings, from these moments.
I just keep praying... and honestly anymore, I don't even know what I am praying for... I guess just happiness. I keep praying for happiness, because I am so tried of the sadness.

Monday, I go see the doctor and hopefully will get put on something for the depression.  Monday can not come soon enough.

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

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