Project 31- Day 6

Day 6.  Jaded beauty.  Has the world's definition of beauty ever jaded you?

I had to look up the definition of Jaded.. lol.  It means exhausted, worn out, disappointed, bored. (you get the pictured.)

To answer that question. YES!!  The “world” expects women to always be beautiful. Always have their hair done perfectly, their make up done perfectly, have the most stylish clothes.. and it is exhausting to always trying to be perfect.

There are so many days where I wake up and I don’t want to get dressed. I don’t want to wear heels. I don’t want to put make up on. I don’t want to do my hair. I just want to be. But I kwow I will be looked down upon by society if I just go out looking NORMAL!!  

Sometimes thou, I really don’t care. I go out as I was and everyone can look and laugh. But ya know what. I don’t care. I am me. period. You don’t like it, don’t look. (I wish I could really have this attitude all the time.)

Beauty isn’t always what you first see when you look at a person… Its what you see after you truly look at a person. J

God Bless

Overthinking Mama 

Doing better-& Project 31- Day 5

Today I am feeling a little bit better..  a few things happened yesterday that changed my mood… I am not going to get into details but it has helped me get a better perspective on things…  So I guess we shall see what the future holds on that J

I am still unhappy with my life though… I feel so unorganized, dis-coordinated, and pretty much feel like I am not with it.  I am always tired. My house is always a mess and I am crabby more than I’d like.  I feel like there is never enough time to do anything that I want and the little time I end up having, I am so exhausted I just want to go to bed.  

I know all this will pass, it normally does. And at least my mood is better than it was on Monday and last week. Having a different perspective is wonderful!!

God has brought so many wonderful people into my life and I truly felt so loved by them all on Monday… I thank God for that and of course everyone that reached out to me! Thank You!!

I have decided to go ahead and do the Project 31 for today, though, I am not really sure how to answer… but here it goes J

Day 5.  Write a blog thanking someone who has made your heart come alive.

There are so many people that has made my heart come alive… Some for brief moments and some for a lifetime.  My kids definitely are the main ones to make my heart come alive and for them I have to thank God. He is the only reason why I have them J 

I guess another person I can thank would be my ex. My daughter’s father… It’s because of him that I am saved. We had a rough and bumpy relationship. I love him more than any one else at the time (besides my kids) and was willing to do whatever it took to make this relationship work since I already felt like a failure because I was divorced.  But it didn’t work out. And I was heartbroken. I felt lower than I have ever felt in my life. But because of that LOW I was able to see how much I needed God. So if it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t be saved! 

The biggest person though that has made my heart come alive… is Jesus!! If I hadn’t come to know him and love him, my heart would still be just another muscle in my body. I wouldn’t be the person I am today. God works wonders and even though I had to go to low points in my life to come to know Christ… It was the best thing in the world.  God has worked so many miracles in my life, and I know I don’t deserve any of them, but He thinks I do. The biggest blessing He has given me is His Son!! I have the opportunity to go to heaven! I am saved!

Who or what has made your heart come alive?

God Bless

Overthinking Mama

Project 31- Day 4

This is going to be 3 posts in one!! J

Project 31

Wordless Wednesday

Update on Hair

So…

For the Project 31: Day 4.  Style 31.  Post a pic of you in your favorite outfit.

So here it is… Well It’s not exactly my favorite outfit.. My fav outfit would be probably these jeans and a tank and some flipflops… but this is as good as I can do when is 4deg. Outside!!  

This shirt is by R23. I got it for Christmas from C28.com. This is my all time favorite t-shirt! And I am not a big t-shirt girl… its either long sleeves or tanks 90% for me… but this one rocks!!!  The jeans are Refuge. I got them at Charlotte Russe a year ago. The zippers broke on them, but they fit sooooo good. And Charlotte Russe no longer carries this brand. So. I will wear these until I can’t. lol.

The boots I just got this year from Payless. They are Airwalks. Ain’t they cute?!   

Wordless Wednesday… yea well there pics… and a lot of words… you’ll live J

painted my nails for the first time... in a year!

My Hair:

Ugh. I dunno. I feel like I have a mullet… I’m gonna give it a week and see if I start to like it more… if not, than I may go cut some more off of it… hey it’ll grow back right?! J

So there ya have it… 3 posts in one!! Enjoy ya’ll J

God Bless

Overthinking Mama

Project 31- Day 3

Day 3.  Who is someone you know who inspires beauty?

The first people that come to mind with this question is my kids.  They inspire me to be beautiful. Not just physically but spiritually.  They are the reason I can go on each and every day.  They help me to see the beauty in life and especially in love.

Someone that inspires me also, though I have never met is Sonya. Some how we have became friends on facebook but still for the life of me, I have no idea how.  I follow her blog.  Everyday she has something wonderful posted on her facebook status. I hope that oneday I can be that optimistic and that spiritual J

Another set of people is my family- my parents and especially my brother.  My brother is mentally handicapped.  He is 17 years older than me but has the mindset of between a 3-7yr old and the body of 45yr old. I love him dearly.

my 18th bday with my brother

I think the biggest inspiration I have though is my love for Christ. Because of this love and the knowledge of His love for me, I am able to see the beauty in everything.  From the snow falling, to the ants crawling across my kitchen floor, to the gentle breeze… Its all beautiful.  J

God Bless

Overthinking Mama

Project 31- Day 2

Day 2.  What makes you uniquely you?

This is a hard one. What makes me, me???  ME and the LORD!!  Lol. 

I think I am different than most people because of my brain and my heart.  As you probably know from my blog, I overthink. Everything.  And honestly 90% I do love this about myself though that other 10% about drives me insane, but hey it gives me something great to blog about normally!! Lol. 

The other part is my heart.  I love whole heartedly so I am easily hurt.  I forgive people I probably should and remain friends even after being betrayed.  I am opened minded enough to be friends with just about everyone, even ex’s, ex’s ex’s or even current bf’s ex’s.  I can’t just love a little. I love a lot.  

God made us all special and it takes a big heart, an open mind, and wide eyes to be able to see it all.  I like to think I have all 3.

God Bless

Overthinking Mama

Project 31- Day 1

Day 1.  What does beauty mean to you?

HHHmmmm… what does beauty mean to me?!

Beauty is a sunset or a sunrise.

Beauty is a flower swaying in the breeze.

Beauty is a child running up just to say “I love you mommy”

Beauty is a friend always being there just when you need them to be.

Beauty is a truth and honesty.

Beauty is a warm bubble bath, a good book, and a glass of wine.

Beauty is a kind, loving personality.

Beauty is being faithful, whole heart and soul.

Beauty is praying.

Beauty is storm clouds rolling in.

Beauty is a dog licking your cheek.

Beauty is a skinned knee and being there to kiss it and make it all better.

Beauty is snuggling up with my kiddos and watching a great movie

Beauty is sitting on the couch with my kiddos reading the bible.

Beauty is the first kiss.

Beauty is the last kiss.

Beauty is realizing that God made everything beautiful.

Beauty is seeing that beauty in everything.

Beauty is being hurt and lonely.

Beauty is knowing that God is always with you, even when you are hurt and lonely.

Beauty is knowing that God knew us before we were even conceived.

Beauty is love.

Beauty is life.

Beauty is more than what we see but what we feel and who we are.

Beauty is loving the Lord.

Beauty is friendship.

Beauty is a letter in your mailbox/inbox.

Beauty is YOU.

Beauty is ME.

God Bless

Overthinking Mama