I don’t know exactly what my deal is today… but I am in a crabby mood. Maybe its because I am still sleep? Maybe because I have so much that needs to be done and I have no way to get it done? Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.
I need someone to come and cheer me up. L
I was checking out a few different blogs and I came across this one by Mandy at She Breathes Deeply. She is an amazing and beautiful Christian woman. I am seriously in awe by her. She is doing a 30days of Truth on her blog and I thought it was a great idea… So I have decided to do that too.. (along with all the other things I have started and not finished with this blog) .. hopefully tho, this is one I will continue with J
These are the subjects:
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like poopy.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
So- Day 1: Something I hate about myself…
HHMM>.. let me think on that….
I guess there are a few things that I really dislike about myself.. I can’t go as far as hate. Hate is a really strong word to me. J
I dislike that I am not satisfied with my life the way it is. I feel like there is so much more out there for me. God has a plan for me and I have yet to figure out what it is or where I am supposed to go. I feel like my life should/could be so much more “perfect” than what it is. I know my life is “perfect” to some people… but then when I see other’s life… I wish it were mine. L I am not saying that I would change anything about my life. I love my kids, my family and especially my God… but sometimes I just feel like I could be doing more in my life… if that makes sense.
I dislike the fact that I am not a better Christian. And this one I have noone else to blame but myself. I slack when it comes to that. I don’t go to church often enough… well I havn’t been since I think Easter, mainly because by the time Sunday comes… I can’t seem to find the energy to get out of bed, and even if I am out of bed, I don’t have the energy to get up dressed, the kids up and dressed and out of the house to church. I haven’t been going to Life Group/Bible study like I would like. Its only every other Friday and I can’t even seem to make that. We have had 3 or 4 now and I have only made it to one. I don’t read my bible like I should. I pray all the time, but not like I would like. I am wanting to get into Christian Yoga and yea I did good for awhile… I am back to slacking again. I just can’t seem to get myself up in the mornings to do it.
I dislike how I am always tired. No matter what I do, how much I sleep, what I eat. I am always tired. I hate it. I feel that because I am tired and don’t have the energy I am crabby more often and don’t get done the things that I would like to get done. This is something that I don’t know what to do to improve. L I’ve started taking vitamins about a month ago.. but again, I slacked and forgot to do that regularly.
I dislike how I can so easily find and remember the negative in everything. I try and think positive… I tell others to think positive.. but deep down, I am thinking negative.
And I dislike how insecure I can be sometimes… always wondering why me? why am I so special that he will stay with me, or that they want to be friends with me, or that they will do this for me?? why me??
Well that’s what I can think of off hand… hopefully I will continue with this J