Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I need something to cheer me up...

I don’t know exactly what my deal is today… but I am in a crabby mood. Maybe its because I am still sleep? Maybe because I have so much that needs to be done and I have no way to get it done? Maybe. Maybe. Maybe. 
I need someone to come and cheer me up. L 

I was checking out a few different blogs and I came across this one by Mandy at She Breathes Deeply.  She is an amazing and beautiful Christian woman.  I am seriously in awe by her.  She is doing a 30days of Truth on her blog and I thought it was a great idea… So I have decided to do that too.. (along with all the other things I have started and not finished with this blog) .. hopefully tho, this is one I will continue with J

These are the subjects:
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself. 
Day 2: Something you love about yourself. 
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for. 
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do. 
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for. 
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like poopy. 
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. 
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. 
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on. 
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on. 
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.) 
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter) 
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. 
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without. 
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. 
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage. 
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? 
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol. 
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? 
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. 
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life. 
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) 
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today. 
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? 
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now? 
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. 
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

So- Day 1: Something I hate about myself…

HHMM>.. let me think on that….
I guess there are a few things that I really dislike about myself.. I can’t go as far as hate.  Hate is a really strong word to me. J
I dislike that I am not satisfied with my life the way it is. I feel like there is so much more out there for me. God has a plan for me and I have yet to figure out what it is or where I am supposed to go.  I feel like my life should/could be so much more “perfect” than what it is. I know my life is “perfect” to some people… but then when I see other’s life… I wish it were mine. L  I am not saying that I would change anything about my life. I love my kids, my family and especially my God… but sometimes I just feel like I could be doing more in my life… if that makes sense.
I dislike the fact that I am not a better Christian.  And this one I have noone else to blame but myself.  I slack when it comes to that.  I don’t go to church often enough… well I havn’t been since I think Easter, mainly because by the time Sunday comes… I can’t seem to find the energy to get out of bed, and even if I am out of bed, I don’t have the energy to get up dressed, the kids up and dressed and out of the house to church.  I haven’t been going to Life Group/Bible study like I would like. Its only every other Friday and I can’t even seem to make that. We have had 3 or 4 now and I have only made it to one.  I don’t read my bible like I should. I pray all the time, but not like I would like. I am wanting to get into Christian Yoga and yea I did good for awhile… I am back to slacking again. I just can’t seem to get myself up in the mornings to do it. 
I dislike how I am always tired. No matter what I do, how much I sleep, what I eat. I am always tired. I hate it. I feel that because I am tired and don’t have the energy I am crabby more often and don’t get done the things that I would like to get done. This is something that I don’t know what to do to improve. L I’ve started taking vitamins about a month ago.. but again, I slacked and forgot to do that regularly.
I dislike how I can so easily find and remember the negative in everything. I try and think positive… I tell others to think positive.. but deep down, I am thinking negative.
And I dislike how insecure I can be sometimes… always wondering why me? why am I so special that he will stay with me, or that they want to be friends with me, or that they will do this for me?? why me?? 

Well that’s what I can think of off hand… hopefully I will continue with this J

God Bless

Overthinking Mama 

1 comment:

  1. Hi stumbled upon your blog. I'm a new blogger and I've just been searching the web for other single momma blogs. I know how it feels. I too am a single mom and there are times when all I can do is cry out to Daddy God. His Grace is more than enough. During those times when you feel like all is lost, know that His amazing love never fails and will never give up on you.


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