Deep breaths… Deep breaths.
I seem to have no patience this week… what so ever.
First week back from vacation.. and well. Its been a week.
Vacation was awesome. I had a good time.. I think the kids had a great time! We got to relax some. I completed my goal of reading 3 books… J Yea. I am that dork.
My Love and I broke up while I was gone.. luckily it was on my way home so It didn’t damper the vacation all that much. It is what it is. I hope that maybe we will be able to go back to being friends…. But I guess only time will be able to tell with that.
Because of that break up and also seeing how some other men act that are in “happy relationships” just make me done. Im not looking. I am not trying. Unless a man can prove himself to me over and above the average man… I am done.
My neighbor came over the other day to tell me that I am partying way too much… Apparently having more than 2 people at my house is a party! Thanks for that info. He also let me know that the system that I have in my car is too loud and it rattles his windows… um hate to break it to you… I have a little kia… factory radio. Its not that loud. And doesn’t have that much bass… so its not me. sorry. I am starting to think that I get blamed for a lot of the other neighborhood drama that occurs just because I am young and don’t have a husband.
I have been trying to keep myself distracted about being single again. I am tired of the games.. the drama. The stress… I just want to be loved. And part of me fears that I will never find that person.
My Loves ex-wife found out about me and him. And of course text me and called me. Honestly… I have nothing to say to her. I am not hiding from her.. I am not scared of her. I just don’t want to deal with her crazy drama. She left him for messed up reasons… She divorced him… She ended mine and her friendship months ago. Me and him didn’t date till months after our friendship ended. AND ME and HIM aint together not more… so sorry… NOTHING to say.
My daughter has a staph infection in her leg. We were at the ER Tuesday night till after 330am… ugh. She seems to be doing better.. but I am still worried for her. But I know God will get us thru this.
I have no motivation. I hate it. I don’t feel like doing any yard work. The outside of my house looks horrible. Weeds everywhere… grass needs mowed. I don’t feel like working. I have no motivation there. I don’t even feel like putting that extra effort in and getting things taken care of with school so I can register for classes. I feel like I am just going thru all of the motions of my life.. but not really living it. ugh.
Sorry that this post is kinda a downer… Im just venting the things on my mind today. I am sure it will get better… I am just in a mood. I feel out of it lately and I don’t like feeling that way. L
Blessings N Love