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Good Morning world.
Notice there is no "!" at the end of that. lol. It is what it is. It is a good morning. I made it to my moms and then to work safe and sound. My husband made it to work safe and sound. The roads are straight ice. I couldn't even hardly park in my moms drive way because it is at a slight slant and my truck kept sliding back down the drive! lol.  but God watched over us and we made it safe and sound.
I am happy for all of that. But I am in a mood. In a not really crabby but not really happy type mood. Ugh. I was alright when I woke up... but then just one little thing irritated me, and boom there went my mood.
This is the one thing I hate most about pregnancy. The mood I get in. I feel like I am always in a bad mood. I don't want to be bothered with anything. I just want to sit and zone out. I wish I could just sleep the next 10 weeks away. 
I am nauseated all the time. I got meds from the doc yesterday, I am hoping they will work. They didn't last night, but I am hoping that maybe it's one of those things that it takes a few days to kick in?! lol.
Today is the first day in weeks, that I have acutally done something to my hair other than pull it back or stick it up with a million bobby-pins.  I actually put make up on other than just mascara. Its not that I really wanted to, but we are having people over this afternoon for a birthday party and I want to look nice for that. Not like I am half dead.
I feel bad because I know I am crabby all the time. I don't want to be, I just am so easily irritated.  One of those wonderful things that they "forget" to tell you when someone explains pregnancy.  I bet if someone had a class and told all the gory details of pregnancy and childbirth, girls would think twice. lol.
Don't get me wrong. I am so happy and so thankful that I am having another beautiful bundle of joy. I just hate this part. But in a few weeks I will be past this part and I will be going through a different stage of pregnancy. lol. Always something. :-)
Today is baby girl's birthday party. (Guess I am going to have to call her something different here soon... she's no longer a baby and no longer the baby in our family. hhhmm- Ren-bug. I will have to do a post updating on all my "nicknames" for the kiddos. lol)  I feel bad because her best friend was supposed to come up and we were going to have a joint birthday party for her, but with the weather being as horrible as it is, there is no way it is going to happen. I just hope everyone will still come for her birthday. I get off work at 2 and the party is at 3. Talk about rush! rush! rush! But, I know everyone will be late anyway... so its all good.  And I know Sami-pooh is a bit disappointed too cuz Ren-bugs best friend is Sami-pooh's sister. She was looking forward to seeing her, but hopefully we will be able to figure something out when the weather gets a bit better so they can see each other. :-)
Alright, enough complaining for now.

Stay warm and have a blessed day!

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

9 weeks and counting...

Well... we found out a couple weeks ago. We are expecting again.  I am about 9 weeks prego!

We are definetely hoping for a boy this time.  I am hoping for this morning sickness which just never seems to go away at any point during the day, goes away asap! lol

I am going to have my hands full here next June.  I am still in shock. And I am very scared. Having 2 little ones under a year old at the same time!!! Oye!!!

But I know God has a plan for it all and it will all work out one way or another!!!

Things at home have been caotic.  I haven't been feeling well and honestly not in the greatest mood most of the time. I am exhausted so the house is a complete disaster. We had a family friend pass away and I am in charge of cleaning her house out so that has been taking up time. I am behind on laundry and dishes. We seriously have ran out of dishes!!! lol  I am just hoping we dont run out of laundry!! haha. 

I have tomorrow off so here's hoping that I feel good, have energy, and can get everything done!!! *fingers crossed*

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

Baby M's Birth Story

Last day being prego

The day baby M was born started out just as any other day normally would.  I had an early morning appointment with job and family services. I felt over dressed but actually felt good that day, so I wanted to look cute. After the appointment, I called my dad up and said that since it was the last day that I was going to be with out a baby and a carrier and all that, that we should go to lunch. I was sceduled to be induced the next day).  

So I go and pick up my dad andw we (my girls included) go up to have lunch a little diner up the road from us.  We ordered our food and then it happened... I felt wetness in my seat. I thought that I must have just accidentally peed myself since I was so prego! lol. So I excuse myself and go to the bathroom.  I go to the bathroom and it just gushed out water. My pants were completely soaked.  So I grabbed a bunch of paper towels and toilet paper and stuff my pants and walk out to tell my dad that we needed to leave... my water just broke!!  

I called Big B at work and let him know. My dad was freaking out as I drove him back to his house... worrying that Big B wasnt going to make it home in time. I assured him that he would probably be home before me... and don't ya know... he was!!!  

Big B was freaking out. I walked in the house and packed a bag for the girls since they were going to go and stay a few days with my mom, I got my bag and pillow all together, and I got a snack bag together for Brett because I knew he would probably get hungry. I called my mom, the doc, and Big B's family and then we all headed up to the hospital.  

waiting to deliver

Big B and his bff

My water broke around 1230 and we made it to the hospital probably around 130ish.  They started me on pitocin around 430 to help speed me along. Abount 545 I asked for some nubane for the pain because I didn't want to have an epidural... but by the time the nurse came in with it, I was already pushing and baby M was born at 6:01pm 

It was absolutely amazing!!!!  And Big B did so great. Better than I thought he was going to. :-) 

Baby M was 7lbs 7oz  and 18.5 inches long. 

Blessings N Love

Overthinking Mama

Life

Well I have been married now for almost 3 weeks... Everyone keeps asking me: So do you feel different now that you are married?. The honest answer is really no.  The MR. and I were already living a "married" life. We lived together. Had kids together. Did life together. I don't feel guilty about this now tho.. so I guess that's a difference. I don't have to feel guilty for having a child out of wedlock. I don't have to feel guilty for living in sin with a man I wasn't married to. I don't have to feel guilty for having sex with a man I wasn't married to. All of this has definitely been a weight lifted off of my shoulders. 
This seem to have calmed down now too. I don't feel as stressed about getting everything thing together for the wedding. That on top of being a mom, working, trying to run a household seriously was wearing me down. Don't get me wrong. I still have my moments where I get stressed out, but not like I did a few weeks ago.  I am hoping over the next few months things settle down even more and we fall in to a good routine with working, school, after school things, family, and other things in life.  
Last night was such a wonderful night. We didn't have anywhere to go. Didn't have anything to do. So we were able to just enjoy each other. We snuggled up on the couch after dinner and watched The Voice. It was good. 
I started a new job last week. I am a secretary for a church. The pay isn't much and the drive is far, but it is a job and I am hoping that maybe it will teach me new things, and eventually lead to something better. I still have my other job at the Nursing Home. I work both jobs part time which is nice cuz then I still get to be home with the kids most of the time and if I am not there then the MR. is. We also have his grandma and my mom babysitting baby M during the days while I am at the church job. So she is always with family.

Hopefully I will be able to start posting more... "fingers crossed"

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

the count down...

It is the final week as a "single" woman.

I am getting married on Saturday.

and truth be told... I am a little scared!!

Not so much of the wedding or any of that- tho yea, I am worried that things will go wrong but thats part of life. lol

I am scared of the unknown. Scared that things will change once we say I Do.  Scared that temptation will get the better of us and cheating will happen.  

I don't want to get married, just to end up in divorce again. I've been there. Its not good.

I am worried that I won't be good enough as a wife.

I have this fear that "karma" will come back and bite me in the butt since I cheated on my first husband... that I divorced him... that I didn't try with him.  That because I hurt him so badly, that I will end up being hurt too.

B is an amazing man.  I now he wouldn't do anything to hurt me, yet. yet, I still am sitting here worried.  I guess I worry because of my past.  Because of my insecurities.

I have to put it all in God's hands.  I have to give all my worry and concern over to Him. He is the one in control. He is the one who will be by me no matter what.  I need to believe that no matter what happens, He will be with me, and will work everything out for His good.

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

Busy. Busy. Busy... oh and did I say busy???

It has been a insanely busy few months!!!

Between normal life, being pregnant, doc appointments for me/baby, the baby shower, figuring things out for the wedding, and work... we also added getting custody of my fiance's little cousin.  So add in court appointments, home study, backround checks, making sure she's up to date on doc visits and dentists, therapists coming to our house to make sure she's adjusting to everything alright... its been crazy... but honestly I wouldn't change any of it for the world!! 

Now we are getting ready  for baby M to come... the wedding... and back to school!!! Yay!!!

My due date is the 15th of August.  They have me scheduled for an induction on the 14th... so I guess we are just playing it by ear till then.  I have been having contractions but nothing consistant. Tho last Sunday I went to the hospital because I just really didn't feel well and was having very bad lower belly pains... it seriously felt almost like there was a knife cutting me from the inside. But I was pretty much told that its normal and only if they are unbearable, my water breaks, or my contractions are very consistant to come back... otherwise... I'll be fine. :-( So its all in God's hands.

I have one more day of work till I am off for maternity leave. I am looking forward to being able to be home more, but we really need the $$. I am trying to get parties set up for Damsel in Defense, but its pretty hard, plus lately I haven't really had the energy to market myself and the company like I should but I think once the baby comes, God willing, I will have more energy and motivation, and wont have this huge belly getting in my way all the time.

We have about a month and a half till our wedding... and I have yet to get the invites mailed out. I am thinking about doing a Facebook event for at least the people on facebook so they will know and I can get an idea for how many people will be coming.  It just hurts to even write out address on envelopes. My hands are swollen and sore... I just finished up doing the thank you's for the baby shower!! lol

I think we pretty much have everything thing done and taken care of for the arrival of baby M. I am planning on breast feeding... not sure for exactly how long... but I want to give it a shot at least. I didn't with the other two, which I don't regret, but I wanted to try with this one especially since I am not working full time.

Well I need to get up and get moving. Need to finish cleaning up the house... and hopefully the back yard too.

It has felt so good to get on here and actually write something. I really need to do this more often. Its very relaxing for me.  I also want to say thank you for all of my readers!!

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama 

Craziness

I know many times that I have said how crazy life is right now.... well I think so far this summer takes the cake!!!  And other than one thing... I wouldn't change anything else for all the money in the world!!!

We are in the process of getting custody of my Fiance's cousin. She is 5 and the sweetest little girl!! She has been staying with us since the beginning of June. She fits in like she's always been here.  I really couldn't imagine her not being here.
We were trying to get her siblings too. She has an older sister and a younger brother, but sadly financially and also logistically we weren't able to...  6 kids in a 3 bedroom, 1000 sqft home (4 girls in one bedroom), was just a little bit too tight.  Plus there were some other things that were determined for the benefit for all the kids so we only were able to get here.

In the past month that she has been here, we have had multiple dentist appointments, doctor visits, social workers, counselor, voice for children advocate come by and visit, visitation up at children services with her mom and siblings... its been busy to say the least. But again, I wouldn't change it at all.

The pregnancy so far is going great.  Been having contraction off and on, but thats normal.  I have 7 more weeks to go!!! I have been going to physical therapy for the last 4 weeks because of the intense back pain I was having. It has been a life saver!!

Our baby shower is in a few weeks. I am excited. Two of my wonderful friends are throwing it for us. :-)   I am due August 15.  Our wedding will be Sept 20th.

We have had baseball Monday thru Friday- every single evening! lol.  That has stopped for lil man. Baby girl still has it going on 2x a week for the rest of the month.

Trying to think about what else has been going on... I really don't know.

I started with two different direct sales companies...
Perfectly Posh and Damsel in Defense. I am really really excited about these companies... esp the Damsel in Defense. Check out my sites if you get a chance.
www.perfectlyposh.com/10126

and

www.mydamselpro.net/safersarah

Well thats all for now... I need to get a lot done around here today, including a Rules list, a chore chart and bathing my doggies!!!

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

ps.with the new additions to the family- I will be switching around Nicknames. :-)