Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Balancing




I have been thinking a lot the last few days... well really for awhile now, off and on, about this.  How do you be a true Christian and a sinning human at the same time?

I always feel like I always fall short of being the Christian I should be. 
Whether its sex before marriage or having a few drinks with some friends.
Dancing provocatively on the dance floor of a small town bar.
Judging someone before I even really know them.
Accepting someone who is gay and befriending them.
Being friends with someone who has had an abortion.
Not constantly trying to show someone how much God loves them.
Not constantly trying to get my kids to read the bible or put them to bed with out their nightly prayers and just hoping that they do it alone. 
Even just as simple as saying a bad word here or there or listening to secular (non christian) music. 

I feel like if a "true Christian" took a look at my life- they would judge. They would look at me and laugh and tell me I am a hypocrite. I can't live life both ways. 

I am a Christian. I pray and have full conversation with the Lord. I fully trust in Him. I read my bible. I post on instagram bible verses almost daily. I go to church.  But I also sin. I knowingly sin.  So how is there a balance?? A happy middle?? 

I guess I am still trying to figure all of that out and hopefully one day I will. 
But through it all- I know one thing... My Father Lord God loves ME!!!  Even when if feels like no one else does... He loves me. 

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

2 comments:

  1. I understand what you are saying. There are many like us who struggle with our Christianity.

    But I think you are on the right track..Although HE is not the only one who loves you, HE is the one you need to always fall back on.

    I hope things become clearer for you!

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  2. Sinning doesn't make you a bad Christian, it's makes you human. I didn't see anything on that list that would condemn you, chin up, smile, and live your life, you can atone for your sins and be forgiven. Peace.

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