1/2 day Tuesday...

I get to leave work at noon today…  I had mixed feelings about and honestly was slightly irritated with the whole situation… but it is what it is… and its all good now… 

My plans for today??!! Clean!! Lol.  I am going to do a major clean of my kids bedrooms… as in closets, drawers, under the beds… etc…   and that also means since I am the one cleaning out the rooms… things get thrown out or put into the garage sale pile in the garage.  The kids hate this because their stuff get throw out… but I only do this once or twice a year… and only after I have told them repeatedly to clean and organize their rooms themselves.  

So why am I leaving early??  I don’t have a sitter… I had two lined up… because I knew one would bale on me… and I was right… He did… lol.   but sadly so did my second one… so now… I have to take a half vacay day. My baby girl is with her grampy this morning.. but he can only watch her till noon… so I am off then and get to spend the rest of the afternoon cleaning with her… fun fun fun.  I think  I might also take the rugs out side to be cleaned too… possibly…  right now I wish I had a clothes line outside so I could wash the sheets and then hang them outside… I guess I will add that to my list of things I want this summer… J

This evening baby girl has a ice cream social for her preschool and then lil man had a music performance at school… It should all be fun!! J 

Ton’s of pictures to come I am sure. J

Happy Tuesday Ya’ll

Blessings N Hugs

Overthinking Mama

Ps. Thank you everyone who voted for me on Circle of Moms… tho I did not make it into the top 25… I still do appreciate everyone who took a moment and voted for me!!!  I was very close and that means a lot that you cared enough and like me that much J

a battle within

I have had this internal battle with in me for almost a year now… and I am not really sure exactly how to handle it.

I haven’t been to church since I think maybe Easter.. Maybe one after that, but I don’t think more than once.  And I am not really sure why.

I am sure the people closest to me have their own opinions on why… but inside my head, I am confused to the reason.

All week long, I say on Sunday I am going to church. I am going. I am going. I am going. But I don’t have the passion to go. I miss having that passion, that desire. But I don’t have it. By the time Sunday comes… I just don’t feel like going.

Some may say it’s the devil holding me back.. and maybe it is. But how do I get the devils hands off of me??!! 

I’ve prayed for it and I will keep praying because it’s the only thing to do.

Maybe it’s because I am in need of a different church?  I love my church. Everyone there is nice. The pastors are great. But I dunno. As much as I do love it, sometimes when I was there, I felt out of place.

Now don’t by any means think that I am not a spiritual person. I believe in Jesus, whole heart and soul. I am born again, been re-baptized a couple years ago, I pray all the time, I talk to God and feel very close to Him. Maybe more so now than I have in a while. J 

I have been trying to do Holy Yoga or Christian Yoga every morning.  Its yoga with Christ at the center of it.  While doing the positions, or while meditating, you pray, you listen, and you open your heart your mind and your soul up to receive the Holy Spirit. It is amazing.  I try to do it everyday, but honestly some days I am just so tired and worn out, the bed gets the best of me that day. But I still have a passion to do this. I have a desire to do this.  I love doing this.  Why can’t I feel like that about going to church?!

God Bless

Overthinking Mama