Saturday, December 22, 2012


I tell people that I can't wait till this year is over and done with.

That this has seriously been a hard year.

I think I have struggled more with life this year, that I have in any other year.

This year, I have had the added responsiblity of helping my father out with EVERYTHING.
I take care of all of his finances.  At the begining of the year I was taking him to all of his doctor appts and if I didn't take him, I arranged for transportation.  I had to go over to his house daily to change the dressing on the wound on his foot.  Made sure he had food every day.  Got him through foreclosure procedings and now hopefully have a loan modification for his mortgage.  I am the one he calls to vent too.

I am been single (and lonely) all year just about.
Dated a guy last January that ended up being very demeaning to me at the end because he couldn't understand things about me and didn't really seem to want to.
My ex tried to get back with me... just to find out that he was still living with his girlfriend and the whole month of him promising me the world.. was all a lie.
Fell in love with a great guy who knew me better than anyone... just to have him stop talking to me and not explain why.

A few friendships ended.

I've learned that with a lot of people in my life that if I don't make the majority of the effort... they won't either.

I've had issues with my son's school.

I've learned my place with so many "friends" and "family"

I've had more car issues this year than EVER!!!

Just seems like one thing after another after another that I need to struggle with.

I am tired.
I don't have the energy anymore to fight off the negativity. It is consuming me right now.  And I hate it, but I am so tired.

Now don't get me wrong.. great things have happened too.
I have gotten closer with the Lord than I have ever been.
I have seen him work in my life in so many different aspects.. its crazy. Mind blowing.

I am just praying that 2013 is so much better.

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

1 comment:

  1. I am so sorry 2012 has not been good for you. Your father is blessed to have an awesome daughter! Keep talking to God and keep your strength. (I so know what you mean by "I am tired." I've been feeling it tenfold the past few weeks but we both will wade through it all and be stronger for it!

    Have a great holiday season!


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