Lately I have been struggling with confidence. I feel like a failure on a daily basis. I feel like my kids aren't happy with me... like my husband isn't happy with me. I feel like I am not good enough for any of them. I feel like I always fail them... the clothes aren't all cleaned and put away. I forgot to sign their homework the night before. I overslept and now they are late for school. I burnt dinner. I didn't get the house cleaned. I don't work enough and bring in enough money. I constantly feel like I am falling short of what my family expects of me.
I am only one person. I can only do so much in a days time. Having 4 kids, being prego, working part time, trying to run a home party business, take care of 3 dogs who don't know the difference of the grass and my family room floor can wear a person out.
I am wore out.
Today is the first time in I couldn't even tell you how long since I have had quiet time in the morning with God. I really need to get back into this. I used to do this every single morning and it made such a big difference in my days!
I was reading this morning Hebrews 13:6- The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me? and Hebrews 10:35-36- So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.
Every time I throw away my confidence, I throw away the power that could have been mine if I chose to live in the security of God's promises instead of the insecurity of my doubts. (Renee Swope-Encouragement for Today devotional)
I live in self doubt. I live in sadness and feeling not good enough. What joy am I missing out of by focusing on what I can not do rather than what I can do??
What are you struggling with??
Blessings N Love