I have realized something about myself in the past few days.... I have small simple dreams... and I am not all that worried about being rich, a millionaire or anything like that. I just want to be able to spend time with my family. That is more important to me than anything else.
Thursday I took the kids to school. I get back home and realize that my son left his folder on the kitchen table. It had all his important stuff in it, so I ran it up to the school. Walking out of the school, I realized how much I really want to be home with my kids. How much I want to be there for them. How much I have missed out in the past years since I worked full time. I said a prayer that God would find me a way to make that happen. Later that day I met with a friend and we sat and talked for almost 4 hours! While we were talking she brought up a business opportunity. Later that day I went and listened to the presentation and it just sounded wonderful. I met with my friends "mentor" the next day to talk more. He asked me what my dreams were. The only thing I really could tell him was that I wanted to be home with my kids. I think he may have thought that I was slightly crazy because I didn't have huge dreams of having a mansion or traveling the world or anything like that. He asked me to think about other things that I want... I had to sit there and really thing for awhile in order to give him answer. For the first time in my life, I am so happy with what I have. A home for my babies, its small but its filled with love. I have my babies, a wonderful family, and great friends. And I have time!!! Time to be with my babies!!! That to me means more than anything else.
Being laid off these past few months seriously has been an absolute blessing to me. I am so thankful that God put me here! It has opened my eyes to so much. Yea when I was working I always said that I wanted to not have to ever work again, but it was more because I didnt want to work there, not because I wanted to be home to be a better mom for my kids. I thought I was doing ok. This time off has opened my eyes and showed me how much better I could be.
I know eventually I will have to back to work since I am a single mom and I am the only one bringing in an income. But I think this time around, my priorities will be different this time around.
Blessings N Love