I have been so down lately… ugh. I wish I could shake this. I hate feeling like this.
I am exhausted all the time.
Half the time I just want to cry.
I have no desire to be around people. In the past 2 weeks I have only been around 2 people besides family. I just have no desire to.
I was supposed to go to a fire over at a friends house and I was all up to going… but by the time I got done with what I needed to do… I was so tired… and so down… I didn’t want to go. I didn’t want to be around people. I def. didn’t want to drink, and I really didn’t want to be around drunk people. So I didn’t go. I went home and went to bed.
Which ended up being a good thing cuz at 4am… I got a call from my dad’s nursing home. His wound on his foot started bleeding out and they couldn’t get it to stop. They were going to send him to the ER. Then about 15 mins later, they got the bleeding to stop so he decided he didn’t want to go. So Sunday morning, me and baby girl went up to the nursing home to see how he was doing. My sisters and their husband/boyfriend came up there. And wanted him to go to the ER because he blood pressure was low. So we decided to take him after he ate lunch. While he was eating lunch the doc called and said he’d be there to check out my dad in a half hour… 2hrs later he finally showed up. We ended up not going to the ER cuz they could do the blood tests and what not there.
It was a very long day.
We went home and napped after that. Lil man was sick. He’s still sick today. Temp of 100.5 L
I just want to go home and cuddle up with him and baby girl and sleep, watch movies… something. anything. But face reality. L I am just tired of it all.
My sister yesterday told me that if Eeyore and Piglet had a baby… I would be it. hhmmm a depressed scardy cat. Well I guess lately that is me. I need to shake this.
I need to go to the doc and see about getting on some anti-depressants or something..
Blessings N Love