It was a pretty good weekend... tho I didnt get done with everything that I really wanted to... OH WELL.. not a big deal.
Friday night we went to dinner as usual with my mom and stepdad. it was a little odd because my brother wasnt there.... We went to Golden Corral.. which is lil mans fav place to go... (all you can eat ice cream)... The kids had fun... they both ate way too much ice cream... and pey couldnt handle all that sugar... so by the time we left he was super duper hyper... Ren was a lil hyper too.. just going off and doing her own thing... After dinner we went to Home Depot then back to my parents... then home.
Once we got home we watched a movie and I colored my hair (tho it didnt turn out right). We all snuggled on the couch together and then off to bed...
Saturday we watch a little tv and then I started bringing down all of the Christmas tree decorations along with the tree... ugh i hate having to do all that... not looking forward to putting it all back up in the attic either! But we got the tree up and Pey helped decorate it.
Later in the day we went over and hung out with my dad and a couple of his friends for a bit... I was so amazed at how good Pey was the entired time we were there... I was in awe. After we left there.. it was a really bad storm. I had promised him that I would take him to rent a movie.. but the roads were really bad.. so I just took him and Ren up to the gas station and let me each get a candy bar... we went home after that and watched a movie and both kids passed out by the time the movie started.
Sunday we didnt go to church.. i felt bad for not going.. but really didnt want to fight with the kids... and i had a headache and i was being lazy :-( we mainly just laid around most of the day.. I finished a gift for my step mom tho! so i was super happy about that... In the evening we went to my moms for dinner and then I took pey to go rent a movie... he got wizards of waverly place.. it was a really cute movie!!! then it was off to bed... pey in my bed.. ren on the couch... who eventually about 2am was in my bed too...
Monday, December 21, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Its almost Christmas!!!
Our Christmas pictures! the bottom was is being sent out with our Christmas cards... (which wont be sent out till after Christmas since I don't acutally get paid till Christmas day again!)
This past weekend I finished up all of my Christmas shopping... I just need to get all the little stocking stuffers and possibly get a small gift for Princess's daddy.
I tried to stick to a small budget this year... which I did go over.. but not too too bad.. so I am happy about that, and most of it isnt on a credit card! So wahoo for that since I am still paying off last Christmas. Tho I am sure there will be a few people disappointed this year ( a 3 and 7 yrold in paticular) but they will have a good Christmas non the less... I need to go out and get a couple more things for my mom from my brother. My dad and stepmom gave me some money to get her a few things... so I am trying to do that during my lunch.
Tomorrow my son's class is having a small party.. which i think i am invited ( i need to email the teacher and double check) so I will be taking my lunch to go and do that. And I have a gift from Christmas last year of Serenity's that I want to take up to the Not Forgoten Box at the Chronicle since it was never opened and never played with.
This weekend coming up, I am planning on getting my Christmas tree up, making a ginger bread house with the kids, taking all their old toys up to the Salvation Army, organize and clean the house, finish up a gift for my step mom that shoulda been finished oh... about 6months ago... and then friday and saturday night... movie nights with the kids... :-)
I hope I can actually get it all done!!!
Your Life and your addiction to social media....
I can say that I am slightly addiction to facebook and twitter. Definetely more so to twitter, but facebook is my life saver during the day... Its my break for sanity at work... (*gasp she goes on it at work?!*). Yes, I admit I am on-line while I am at work... I need a break from the quoting, and the calls and the customers... I need to see other "people" and their daily goings on... and the way I figure...I dont smoke. So this is my "cigarette break" :-) anywho...
I was thinking last night about how many people on facebook, twitter, myspace, blogs, etc... put their business out there. When they are fighting with their best friends- they say so in their status update message. When their husband didnt pick his socks up from the bedroom floor- they tweet. When their kids are yelling and screaming- they blog. I want to ask... when is it too much?
My mom told me many years ago that when her and my father got divorsed... No one in her family could believe it.. She never told them the stories of anything that went on in their relationship. You didn't air your dirty laundry. Period.
Now adays (and I am completely guilty of it... tho I try and not name names when I am upset about something and decide to blog, update status, tweet, etc... about it... I just used generalities) we have no shame, we will at the first hint of anger, hurt, fear whatever... will call a person out on any social media site!
Now I completely understand people blog about their family... I do too. I have another blogsite that I do this thru... but I also have very few people that know about this blog, because it is where I go to vent my issues that I may be having. I also tweet. I joke and say twitter is my sanity... but sometimes it is... when I am having a bad day, fighting with my kids, am heart broken, frustrated, whatever... I will tweet... and tweet like crazy sometimes... and tho I may have 230 followers... very few of them are people I know in "real life". And I also make sure I dont use real names when I tweet...
Why do we feel like we have put all of our business about how horrible things are in our life... our husbands, our jobs, our kids, etc... Are we trying to make everyone feel sorry for us? Are we doing it so that way if we do something else (cheat, divorse, quit, yell, hit etc)
Some things are ment to stay between you and your family/close friends.... Not with 120 people you knew from highschool/family/and complete strangers.
I know I am completely guilty of this too... I tell more than I should about things that I don't need to be.... but maybe before posting that next update... ask yourself... do I really need to post this???
I was thinking last night about how many people on facebook, twitter, myspace, blogs, etc... put their business out there. When they are fighting with their best friends- they say so in their status update message. When their husband didnt pick his socks up from the bedroom floor- they tweet. When their kids are yelling and screaming- they blog. I want to ask... when is it too much?
My mom told me many years ago that when her and my father got divorsed... No one in her family could believe it.. She never told them the stories of anything that went on in their relationship. You didn't air your dirty laundry. Period.
Now adays (and I am completely guilty of it... tho I try and not name names when I am upset about something and decide to blog, update status, tweet, etc... about it... I just used generalities) we have no shame, we will at the first hint of anger, hurt, fear whatever... will call a person out on any social media site!
Now I completely understand people blog about their family... I do too. I have another blogsite that I do this thru... but I also have very few people that know about this blog, because it is where I go to vent my issues that I may be having. I also tweet. I joke and say twitter is my sanity... but sometimes it is... when I am having a bad day, fighting with my kids, am heart broken, frustrated, whatever... I will tweet... and tweet like crazy sometimes... and tho I may have 230 followers... very few of them are people I know in "real life". And I also make sure I dont use real names when I tweet...
Why do we feel like we have put all of our business about how horrible things are in our life... our husbands, our jobs, our kids, etc... Are we trying to make everyone feel sorry for us? Are we doing it so that way if we do something else (cheat, divorse, quit, yell, hit etc)
Some things are ment to stay between you and your family/close friends.... Not with 120 people you knew from highschool/family/and complete strangers.
I know I am completely guilty of this too... I tell more than I should about things that I don't need to be.... but maybe before posting that next update... ask yourself... do I really need to post this???
kids, sex, and birth control
I was having a talk with one of my friends the other night... She is a Christian... Her husband left her a few years ago for another woman... and she is raising a 13yr old daughter all by herself. The dad... is gone... he doesnt want anything to do with the family now. Anywho... I was talking with her and we were talking about kids having sex. (obviously before marriage)
She said she was thinking about IF her daughter came to her and said that she was having sex... she would immediately get her on some sort of medical birth control (pill, patch, ring etc). And have a talk with her about sex, (again) the risks, and God. But she would definetely put her on birth control... just in case.
She was telling me her reasoning behind this.... if her daughter is willing to go out and have sex at least once.... there is a chance that she might do it again... (boys are very persuassive) and she would rather her be protected so there would be no unwanted pregnancy. Her cousin found out a month or so ago that their daughter had been having sex, got pregnant, and had an abortion... all with out her mothers knowledge. She found out from the mother of her daughters friend. The mother overheard the girls talking and called shortly afterward. She had told the mom that if it were her daughter, she would want to know. The cousin confronted her daughter about it and she just said that she was scared. She was 16 and wasnt ready for a baby and knew that they definetely couldnt afford to raise a kid. So she thought this was best. She hated herself for it, but didnt know what else to do.
My friend doesn't want be put in this same situation...
So I asked my friend... Dont you think that putting her on birth control (that can fail~i have proof!!) is kinda like saying.... well, i dont want you to do it... but here go ahead.
What is the right thing to do? In todays soceity more and more youth are having sex younger and younger... I was one of them. I was also one of the very lucky ones and didn't get pregnant till I was an adult (or mostly) and had a full time job and was able to take care of my son. (I also had a great boyfriend who stayed with me and was a great father and still is). But what is the right thing to do? Prepare them in every possible way... show them right from wrong... tell them what the bible says...what God says... but also prepare them for IF they decide to go out and do it too? I honestly don't know the right answer... I don't know what I am going to do when I am faced with that situation... What do you think is right? If it were your daughter... what would you do?
She said she was thinking about IF her daughter came to her and said that she was having sex... she would immediately get her on some sort of medical birth control (pill, patch, ring etc). And have a talk with her about sex, (again) the risks, and God. But she would definetely put her on birth control... just in case.
She was telling me her reasoning behind this.... if her daughter is willing to go out and have sex at least once.... there is a chance that she might do it again... (boys are very persuassive) and she would rather her be protected so there would be no unwanted pregnancy. Her cousin found out a month or so ago that their daughter had been having sex, got pregnant, and had an abortion... all with out her mothers knowledge. She found out from the mother of her daughters friend. The mother overheard the girls talking and called shortly afterward. She had told the mom that if it were her daughter, she would want to know. The cousin confronted her daughter about it and she just said that she was scared. She was 16 and wasnt ready for a baby and knew that they definetely couldnt afford to raise a kid. So she thought this was best. She hated herself for it, but didnt know what else to do.
My friend doesn't want be put in this same situation...
So I asked my friend... Dont you think that putting her on birth control (that can fail~i have proof!!) is kinda like saying.... well, i dont want you to do it... but here go ahead.
What is the right thing to do? In todays soceity more and more youth are having sex younger and younger... I was one of them. I was also one of the very lucky ones and didn't get pregnant till I was an adult (or mostly) and had a full time job and was able to take care of my son. (I also had a great boyfriend who stayed with me and was a great father and still is). But what is the right thing to do? Prepare them in every possible way... show them right from wrong... tell them what the bible says...what God says... but also prepare them for IF they decide to go out and do it too? I honestly don't know the right answer... I don't know what I am going to do when I am faced with that situation... What do you think is right? If it were your daughter... what would you do?
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Sarah
I was reading the bible last night. I decided to read about Sarah and Abraham...
And some of the things... I just couldnt believe...
Her husband let her be taken away from him twice... He asked her to lie for him, to say he was her brother (which wasnt untrue) so that he wouldnt die. But because of this she was taken away from him and because a wife of another man!!! And this didn't happen just once but twice!!! I can only imagine how I would feel if my husband was so selfish to give me to another man for his pleasure just to save himself!!! Yet, Sarah did as Abraham said. She was returned to Abraham both times because God intervened. Abraham had no faith in the Lord so he lied and had his wife lie for him.
Another part of their "love" story is where Sarah thinking and again not trusting the Lord that she will never bare him a child so she had her husband sleep with her maidservant so that he would get her pregnant and he would have a son. He obeyed and slept with another woman.
Could you imagaine in this day of age... staying with a man that would be willing to sacrifice his wife on more than one occasion to save himself... then he sleeps with another woman and has a child by this woman... all of this because of their lack of faith in the Lord.
I can only imagine Sarah's self worth during all of this. In society today if these things were to happen... We would tell Sarah she deserves better... we would tell her to move on with her life... she doesnt need to stay around for that. She should just divorse him and be done... The marriage aint worth anything...
We tell people that all the time now for less... A man lies to you about going to get a drink after work... and everyone say you cant trust him- divorse... A woman spend too much money shopping and lies to you about it... cant trust her- divorse. You aren't happy with your husband/wife becuase they dont show you they love you enough, they dont pick up after themselves, they dont clean, they dont.. they dont.. they dont... Divorse!!
Whatever happened to trying to work thru your problems... You are husband and wife. You took a vow to God to be married... Death do you part. Why is that so hard now adays... Why do we always take the easy way out of every situation. Why do we have so little faith in our Lord that we would rather just give up and start over...
How easy it would have been for either Sarah or Abraham to just give up... say screw it.. run away from the problem and start over "a new" but where would be today with out them??
And some of the things... I just couldnt believe...
Her husband let her be taken away from him twice... He asked her to lie for him, to say he was her brother (which wasnt untrue) so that he wouldnt die. But because of this she was taken away from him and because a wife of another man!!! And this didn't happen just once but twice!!! I can only imagine how I would feel if my husband was so selfish to give me to another man for his pleasure just to save himself!!! Yet, Sarah did as Abraham said. She was returned to Abraham both times because God intervened. Abraham had no faith in the Lord so he lied and had his wife lie for him.
Another part of their "love" story is where Sarah thinking and again not trusting the Lord that she will never bare him a child so she had her husband sleep with her maidservant so that he would get her pregnant and he would have a son. He obeyed and slept with another woman.
Could you imagaine in this day of age... staying with a man that would be willing to sacrifice his wife on more than one occasion to save himself... then he sleeps with another woman and has a child by this woman... all of this because of their lack of faith in the Lord.
I can only imagine Sarah's self worth during all of this. In society today if these things were to happen... We would tell Sarah she deserves better... we would tell her to move on with her life... she doesnt need to stay around for that. She should just divorse him and be done... The marriage aint worth anything...
We tell people that all the time now for less... A man lies to you about going to get a drink after work... and everyone say you cant trust him- divorse... A woman spend too much money shopping and lies to you about it... cant trust her- divorse. You aren't happy with your husband/wife becuase they dont show you they love you enough, they dont pick up after themselves, they dont clean, they dont.. they dont.. they dont... Divorse!!
Whatever happened to trying to work thru your problems... You are husband and wife. You took a vow to God to be married... Death do you part. Why is that so hard now adays... Why do we always take the easy way out of every situation. Why do we have so little faith in our Lord that we would rather just give up and start over...
How easy it would have been for either Sarah or Abraham to just give up... say screw it.. run away from the problem and start over "a new" but where would be today with out them??
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
him
Ive tried... but now I really do think its time to move forward... I have been stuck on him for so long... too long... and have had to endure so much pain... so much hurt... and I know its made me a better person... but really? why do I keep going back to that?
I look at him and I am starting to see him better.. see him for him. who he really is.. He is selfish. He is selfcentered.. He cares more about himself than anyone in his life including his own flesh n blood...
The more I look at him, the more I see him, the more I talk to him, watch him and hear him talk... the more I realize he aint the man I want to spend my life with... I would never truely be happy. Not in the way that I want.
He could be a friend... but nothing more.
I worry that I will never love another man as strongly as I love him... but I know one day I will... I will always have a love for him, but one day when I meet the man that God has intended for me, I will fall in love farther than I ever thought possible.
I can never be truely happy or truely satisfied with him. He is not a man of God and the more I am around him the more that I see that... I see the way he mocks me, the way he judges me, and they way that no matter what I do, say, look, smell or anything... Its never enough for a simple compliement... unless he wants something...
I told him I would give him till the end of the year... and its fast approaching... I know he wont change so I dont know why I even give him the chance to just hurt me... but I will give him that chance... if he doesnt make the one thing I asked of him by then... I will completely walk away.. and NOT LOOK BACK this time...
Because I deserve better than what he can give me!
I look at him and I am starting to see him better.. see him for him. who he really is.. He is selfish. He is selfcentered.. He cares more about himself than anyone in his life including his own flesh n blood...
The more I look at him, the more I see him, the more I talk to him, watch him and hear him talk... the more I realize he aint the man I want to spend my life with... I would never truely be happy. Not in the way that I want.
He could be a friend... but nothing more.
I worry that I will never love another man as strongly as I love him... but I know one day I will... I will always have a love for him, but one day when I meet the man that God has intended for me, I will fall in love farther than I ever thought possible.
I can never be truely happy or truely satisfied with him. He is not a man of God and the more I am around him the more that I see that... I see the way he mocks me, the way he judges me, and they way that no matter what I do, say, look, smell or anything... Its never enough for a simple compliement... unless he wants something...
I told him I would give him till the end of the year... and its fast approaching... I know he wont change so I dont know why I even give him the chance to just hurt me... but I will give him that chance... if he doesnt make the one thing I asked of him by then... I will completely walk away.. and NOT LOOK BACK this time...
Because I deserve better than what he can give me!
12/8/09
Yesterday was a better day... mostly!
My mom picked up both kids from school and the sitter... then I went over her house for dinner after work... Pey was wild and crazy of course as soon as I showed up... but was an angel before I got there... I had to fight with him to finish his homework. I told him that if he didnt finish tho that we weren't going to go to the mall to play or to jump. (they have a bungee jump thing there that he and his sister love to do). So finally after a bit of fighting with me.. He sat down and did his homework... I tried to help him with some of it.. but honestly I hadnt a clue on parts... ugh!!! My son is so literal too...it is annoying... My mom made meatloaf for dinner and Pey loves it normally. Well tonite he decided he didnt want any of it and wouldnt eat it... My mom told him he loves her meat loaf.. he said yea but thats not they way you normally make it.. my stepdad told him that its the same meat loaf she always makes... my son...literal lil boy... says no thats not the same meat loaf... that would be nasty if we ate the same meat loaf as the last time! eeewww... my step dad said she made it the same way she always does... my son said she doesnt always make meat loaf... we have other things for dinner than meatloaf!!! so frustrating sometimes!!!!
Finally got everything ate.. and homework finished... so we went to the mall.. On the way there Pey read Sissy an Ameila Bedilia book... they both loved it...
Then they played at the play ground in the mall with the other kids... and had a lot of fun... then we went and did the jumpy thing...
Overall i think it was a great night!
My mom picked up both kids from school and the sitter... then I went over her house for dinner after work... Pey was wild and crazy of course as soon as I showed up... but was an angel before I got there... I had to fight with him to finish his homework. I told him that if he didnt finish tho that we weren't going to go to the mall to play or to jump. (they have a bungee jump thing there that he and his sister love to do). So finally after a bit of fighting with me.. He sat down and did his homework... I tried to help him with some of it.. but honestly I hadnt a clue on parts... ugh!!! My son is so literal too...it is annoying... My mom made meatloaf for dinner and Pey loves it normally. Well tonite he decided he didnt want any of it and wouldnt eat it... My mom told him he loves her meat loaf.. he said yea but thats not they way you normally make it.. my stepdad told him that its the same meat loaf she always makes... my son...literal lil boy... says no thats not the same meat loaf... that would be nasty if we ate the same meat loaf as the last time! eeewww... my step dad said she made it the same way she always does... my son said she doesnt always make meat loaf... we have other things for dinner than meatloaf!!! so frustrating sometimes!!!!
Finally got everything ate.. and homework finished... so we went to the mall.. On the way there Pey read Sissy an Ameila Bedilia book... they both loved it...
Then they played at the play ground in the mall with the other kids... and had a lot of fun... then we went and did the jumpy thing...
Overall i think it was a great night!
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