A few years ago, when I was going thru a hard time in my life
with being single and depression I talked to my pastor about starting a singles
bible study. I thought it was something that would be great for the church and
something that is really needed. I know that I am not the only person in the
church that struggle with being a Christian and being single. He wasn’t very open about the idea and
eventually just stopped replying to my emails.
I believe it was only a few more weeks after that, that I stopped going to
that church. I just felt very turned
off by the way that he handled the whole situation. That was two years ago.
Off and on over the past year I had the urge to start up a bible
study or something but never really pursued it past the urge. I really didn’t
know where to start. This past January I
felt that urge again while I was at church. That He’s pushing me towards doing
this singles group, there was only one problem, I was dating someone… so
technically – not single. I prayed on it
and a few weeks later my boyfriend at the time showed me his true colors and we
ended up breaking up. So here I am a
month later… and doing nothing but writing a blog post about it. lol.
I have a big fear or anxiety issues when it comes to talking to
people. I really don’t like calling people or talking to them about things. I
barely even talk to people that I know and am friends with. I just really don’t
like doing that. Let alone, trying to run a group and having to speak in front
of them. But I know that it something
that I can and will have to overcome in my life.
I also have a big fear of the unknown and of failure. I really
don’t know where to start or what to talk about or anything. So that is holding
me back. I don’t want to start up something and no one shows up, or that a
bunch of people show up and I just stand up front of them and am like “ddddrrrruuuuhhhh?????”
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
