poor baby

Edward got injured... one of the other puppies nipped his tail.... there was blood everywhere!

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Realization Friday

Its that time again folks!! 

Realization Friday!! Make sure you send yours in to be posted in next weeks espisode!! J

I’ve Come To Realize:

~ that no matter how I dont want too....I am getting older...I still want to play on the floor and wrestle with my son, and some day I wont be able to do that because he is getting so big. I love the outdoorz and playing paintball...it is getting the other older guys I know to go play too....so I think I hate getting old..

~ that winter sucks royal buttocks.

~ That I am in love with a great great man

~ change can be good… and it can be bad… but in the long run it all works out ok.

~ I am a control freak!!!

~ my job now will never fulfill me the way that I need.

~ my son will always be my son and I will always love him even though he may annoy the crap out of me… same goes for my daughter

~ I really need to get into shape

~ I love changing how I look:

~ I love reading the Postsecrets website every Sunday…

~ I will be so happy when it is finally spring/summer/fall… anything but winter L

Thanks for reading!! J  Have a wonderful and safe weekend!! J 

God Bless

Overthinking Mama 

mom/son date

I took lil man out bowling last night, just me and him. We don't really get that much alone time with each.other, and def not as much as baby girl and I do. So I like to try and have a one on one day with him once a month just so we can reconnect and have some fun. Just me and him. I've sacked on this the last few months tho but it is something that I plan on doing in the future. We went bowling last night and howled 3 games. It was a lot of fun and of course I beat him which he didn't like very much. But I don't want him to always win, he need to learn how to lose too and its not the end of the world if you do lose. I think he had a lot of fun, I know I did.

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The lil miss princess

thoughts for the day

I feel the Lord around me today…  I feel like he’s lifting me up for something… I am not sure what and maybe that’s all part of this… growing my faith.

I felt Him last night too. I was in the shower and I could feel his presence around me.. like he was hugging me, telling me everything would be alright.

I also heard him tell me… just to be content with everything for now… this will get even better J

I have had this strong feeling that the Lord has something wonderful planned for me… like I truly have a purpose more than just being a woman, a mom, a friend, a daughter, a sister, a salesperson… like He wants me to do something, to spread His blessings.   Though I still don’t really know what it is I am supposed to be doing. I have prayed for this for so long… and I will keep praying until it finally happens.

I do have a longing for change… a different job, different house, different city, something majorly different…. But that also scares me…  I need the job that I have right now. They are wonderful. They are flexible when need be. The pay is exactly what I need to pay my bills. But I do have moments where I feel maybe I need to move on.   A different house… I so would love a bigger home. There so many cute ones a few streets over in a wonderful neighborhood where I have always wanted to live… and they are for sale… but I  don’t have good credit and honestly even if I did because it would be such a bigger house, I don’t know if I could afford just the heat to keep it warm J A different city is just about out… unless it like an adjacent city to where I live now and still close enough that it doesn’t take me forever to get to where I need to be. With my Step mom having lung cancer and my dad not always in the greatest of health, my brother being mentally handicapped and when my parents pass, I will be all he has… I need to stick around here J and even tho sometimes I hate where I live… I hate the cold. The snow. I know I wont be able to leave any time soon… J  So I dunno…

Any who…

Just wanted to type.. so there ya go.. my thoughts for the day. J

God Bless

Overthinking Mama

this first monday sucked

The first Monday of the New Year… kicked my butt!! Lol.   I just hope this ain't a prelude to what the future holds for this year.. J or maybe I am just getting all the crappy stuff out of the way??!!! Yea. That’s how I am going to look at it!

My day started out icky at 130 in the morning… when my big dog Edward wouldn’t go to sleep. He kept ringing the bell to be let outside. So I would get up and let him out… 5 min later he was ready to come in… he finally came to bed with me and then I heard it… the preparation throat noises that dogs make right before they throw up. I shoved him off the bed. Just in time!  He threw up all over the flow… 2 huge piles…   I let me back outside… cleaned up the mess.. brought him in.. and put him in the cage.  I didn’t wanna deal with that anymore that night. He threw up once more in the cage. Luckily it was on a blanket so I could just wash that.

When I got up for good (I was up and down all night long) I emailed my work to let them know that I wasn’t going to be in. My friend’s father died and Monday was the funeral. I was going to go. I’ve known her and the family for 16yrs now. They are my family.

Got everyone up and ready and as we were going out the door, baby girl threw up. So there went the funeral.  Got everyone in the car and down to the bus stop. Where we waited. And waited. And waited. The bus didn’t show.  So I drove them to school.  I had to drop my car off to get a remote starter put in, baby girl threw up in the parking lot.  My friend came and picked us up and took us home.  We both lay down and slept. 

I finally got up and started cleaning. I threw my brand new down comforter in the washer… and of course it ripped a huge hole in it. ugh. Feathers everywhere- then I read the tag Dry Clean Only. Wth. King size down comforter that I can’t wash.

Baby girl then threw up on my couch… so had to clean that…  Made her go and lay down instead of following me all over the house. Other than the throwing up- she seemed absolutely fine J

Then after I picked up my car/ got my kids I went and got gas and decided to wash my car because it hadn’t been washed in forever!  So while at the car wash, I decided to get out of my car since I was waiting my turn for the automatic car wash and purchase a wipe to clean the inside of my, from the vending machine on the building. Well as I made my way over there, I slipped on the ice that looked like just wet cement.  Ended up taking my self to the ER because I was in pain. Everything turned out ok… tho I am still in pain and have a headache… oh and there is no contact info on the building nor in the phone book/ Google or 411 nothing…

When I got home from the hospital.. I got to fight with my kids about going home and going to bed…

Fun times Fun times.

God Bless

Overthinking Mama 

Happy New Year!

Every year I make a list of Goals for the following year.

Last year the list consisted of:

Look Forward, Not back- mainly meaning stay away from Ex’s (a certain one in particular)

Go To School

Get closer with God- pray more

I have done everything on that list… tho it was simple and I had God’s help with it. J

This year, I am extending my goal list and with God’s help, I will complete all that HE deems I should.

Go to the Gym.

          This means I need to get a membership somewhere and then come out of my shell and actually go and workout where there maybe other people watching me..

Start a paper journal.

          I used to always keep a journal/diary till I had it used against me more times than I’d care to say… sure I was wrong in what I did and what I wrote down but that place was supposed to be sacred. This goal is still up in the air. I still have that fear that what I write maybe used against me at some point or another.

Pay off all my medical bills

          Hello Income Tax refund check… and good bye.

Get more into Christian Yoga

          I need to find a place that has classes for that and/or a school where I could learn to teach it J

Get even closer with God

          Pray more, read the bible more, focus on God and not all the negativity in life

Get baby girls last name changed

          I’ve decided to change her last name to mine from her father’s because she doesn’t hardly know that side of the family and she is not a priority to her father. She knows my family more than anything.. She is MY family name more than her fathers…sadly.

Start a MOM group

          I want to start some kind of group where mom’s can get together and meet and talk about issues with are having in life/kids/job/relationships etc. A safe place where we can relate and know we are not alone.

Work with my mom more to get the coffee shop started

          I have a dream of opening a Christ centered coffee shop. A safe place for individuals, couples and family to gather. J

Start doing something crafty

          And possibly open an etsy shop… but I definetelly want to get crafty J

Buy a bigger house

          This is more of a wish than a goal, but I thought I would throw it on here too… I so want a bigger house but there are a lot of factors thrown in that I need to get fixed/figured out- my credit score, selling/renting my house, finding a house I want etc…

So those are the goals for 2011.  I am looking forward to the new year and the “fresh start” 

My boyfriend will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary in January also. We met last year down in New Orleans at my sister’s wedding. J  I am thinking of planning something special for just the two of us…

Happy New Year!!

God Bless

Overthinking Mama