the little butterflies...

I have those little butterflies in my tummy!!

My reconnection friend came over last nite to watch a movie. We seen Pineapple Express... it was freaking hilarious!!!! We couldnt believe they said the things they did.

He was such a gentleman tho... didn't try anything with me...

He even made up a reason to hold my hand: he took my hand and was like- wow you have a lot of rings (maybe not word for word) and since my hand was in his... he just didn't let go... aawww... lol.

We cuddled and watched the movie, and talked about a lot of things. I am really looking forward to the next time!

When he left he was still a gentleman, he just kissed me sweetly on the lips and hugged me... but we both kinda lingered there by the door... both wanting more time, more (for lack of a better word) passion... so he hugged me again... and kissed me.... and then i took the initiative, and kissed back more passionatly... it was wonderful...

and i have butterflies now just thinking about it...
and i want to see him again... like now... want to feel his arms around me... want to feel his lips against mine...

but i am also sooo scared... scared of getting my hopes up... scared of really falling for him... scared of getting hurt... scared of rushing into things... making mistakes...

but also... i am enjoying the butterflies... and even if it doesn't work out... this is nice... this is fun... i am blessed that at least I get this feeling because so many people out there don't ever have the chance to feel the "love butterflies" in their bellys!