The last few days have been rough for me.. well really this whole week has been. I have been struggling with insecurity in my life...
I have been worrying about my lack of a job... lack of incoming funds... and with the possibility of not getting the assistance that I thought I may be able to get.
I am learning one thing about myself though... I need to keep busy. I need to always be doing something. I can't just sit around and do nothing. lol. Yesterday as I was cleaning the house, I started to feel better about my life and my situation.
Last night my handsome boyfriend took me out to dinner. My mom wonderfully watched my baby girl so we could have some time with just us. We held hands, we laughed, we joked. It was wonderful and was just what I needed after these past 3 weeks of nonstop running around and this past week of non stop worrying.
This morning I had a great quiet time with God and he opened my mind and my heart to my faith. I know he has a plan for me. Its a magnificent plan. It may not be exactly what I think the plan should be, but His plan is even more wonderful than anything I could ever even imagine!!!
And in the midst of my struggles... God hears my prayers and has blessed me. I always sorta doubted when someone would say: "I prayed for XXX and I opened my mail box and boom, there it was" I have now seen first hand how the Lord works!!! I will not ever doubt again!!!
My heart is rejoicing!!!!
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
struggling this week
I am going to try and post every day or every other day on here from now on... I want to share the ups and downs of being unemployed and now a stay at home mom until I find another job.
This week has been a struggle for me.
I feel like I have been running around crazy for the last 3 days... it seems like there is always something that needs to be done.. All last week, I worked on cleaning the house and doing laundry. The week before I was cleaning up the outside and getting ready for the cook out that we had. This week, its been one appointment after another after another. Yesterday I went in to file for food and medical assistance, I had to go with my mom for something for her, lil man had a orthodontist appointment and then baseball at 530 till after 9pm. I was gone almost all day. Plus I had to find time to get the stuff together to go back to the human services office for the food and medical assistance today, get the kids teachers gifts together since today is there last day of school. Non. Stop.
Today, I went back up to human services with everything I thought I needed, but of course I was missing a couple things. So now I have to get all that together and get it back to them. After that I ran to baby girls end of the year party and watched the kindergarten graduation, then headed to little man's school for their end of the year party. I have about a 45 minute break right now before I have to leave to go to my depression doc appt. Non- Stop.
Last night it all kinda caught up with me. I had a headache, wasn't feeling the greatest and was in a horrible mood. I got into it with my boyfriends thinking he was having an attitude with me... but really he wasn't. We did talk it out and things seemed to be resolved. But this morning I asked if he was coming over tonight and he said "idk". I went from fine to no in 0.3 seconds. That is not like me at all.
I don't know. Maybe I am just over thinking things (shocker right?). Just seems like since I have been unempoloyed things have changed. Maybe its just be because I am insecure and uncertain of whats going to happen now that I am not working. The lady today told me that I may not qualify for medical assistance because with unemployment and child support, I may make too much.. How messed up is that???!!! lol.
Tomorrow will be the first day of summer vacation for the kids.. so hopefully I will be able to get us on some kind of routine and hopefully I won't feel like I am losing my mind about everything.
I know God has a plan for me... and I really need to get back into my special quiet time with Him again.. I have slacked on that, the past few weeks with not working, and honestly even before that I was starting to slack. I need to get back to Him being my main focus again.
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
This week has been a struggle for me.
I feel like I have been running around crazy for the last 3 days... it seems like there is always something that needs to be done.. All last week, I worked on cleaning the house and doing laundry. The week before I was cleaning up the outside and getting ready for the cook out that we had. This week, its been one appointment after another after another. Yesterday I went in to file for food and medical assistance, I had to go with my mom for something for her, lil man had a orthodontist appointment and then baseball at 530 till after 9pm. I was gone almost all day. Plus I had to find time to get the stuff together to go back to the human services office for the food and medical assistance today, get the kids teachers gifts together since today is there last day of school. Non. Stop.
Today, I went back up to human services with everything I thought I needed, but of course I was missing a couple things. So now I have to get all that together and get it back to them. After that I ran to baby girls end of the year party and watched the kindergarten graduation, then headed to little man's school for their end of the year party. I have about a 45 minute break right now before I have to leave to go to my depression doc appt. Non- Stop.
Last night it all kinda caught up with me. I had a headache, wasn't feeling the greatest and was in a horrible mood. I got into it with my boyfriends thinking he was having an attitude with me... but really he wasn't. We did talk it out and things seemed to be resolved. But this morning I asked if he was coming over tonight and he said "idk". I went from fine to no in 0.3 seconds. That is not like me at all.
I don't know. Maybe I am just over thinking things (shocker right?). Just seems like since I have been unempoloyed things have changed. Maybe its just be because I am insecure and uncertain of whats going to happen now that I am not working. The lady today told me that I may not qualify for medical assistance because with unemployment and child support, I may make too much.. How messed up is that???!!! lol.
Tomorrow will be the first day of summer vacation for the kids.. so hopefully I will be able to get us on some kind of routine and hopefully I won't feel like I am losing my mind about everything.
I know God has a plan for me... and I really need to get back into my special quiet time with Him again.. I have slacked on that, the past few weeks with not working, and honestly even before that I was starting to slack. I need to get back to Him being my main focus again.
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
Saturday, June 1, 2013
two weeks
Well it has been two weeks now that I have been unemployed... and I swear I have been more busy in the past two weeks with thing around my house than I have been in the past month!!
It seems like there is always something that needs to be cleaned... something that needs done... something that needs picked up. Always something.
We had a cook out on the 26th for Memorial Day. My boyfriend and I invited our friends and family and had a big ole cook out, a fire and some corn hole playing. It was real, y nice and a lot of fun.
So all the week before the cook out I was cleaning house.. mowing... putting down mulch.. trying to just get everything looking good for every thing... This past week, my dad had eye surgery so I had to take him for that and then also the follow up appt.
Next week, I have a doc appt, and appt with my mom, orthodontist appt for lil man, the last day of school for the kids, a end of the year party/cook out for both kids at different schools on the same day.
Another busy week... let alone, baseball and soccer in the evenings!!
More and more I realize how much I have enjoyed being able to be home and take care of things and always feeling like I am missing out on something with the kids.
It has been on my heart heavy the last couple weeks and even really before that, that I would love to be able to be a stay at home mom... financially I don't know if or how it would be possible. But I am going to pray on it and listen to the Lord speak to me on it. Even if I could only work part time or something I would be happy with that...I just hate always feeling like I am missing out of so much of my kids lives... always feeling like someone else is raising my kids. I want to have a closer relationship with both of my kids. I want them to always feel like they can come to me with anything and that I am always there for them... not that I am too busy or too tired because of work and everything else. I want to be able to be there when they get home from school and be able to help them with their homework, or personal problems that they may be having. I just want to be able to be there more for them.
I really need to figure things out... financially... emotionally... and spiritually. I need to meditate on it and put it all in God's hands and see what he has planned for me.
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
It seems like there is always something that needs to be cleaned... something that needs done... something that needs picked up. Always something.
We had a cook out on the 26th for Memorial Day. My boyfriend and I invited our friends and family and had a big ole cook out, a fire and some corn hole playing. It was real, y nice and a lot of fun.
So all the week before the cook out I was cleaning house.. mowing... putting down mulch.. trying to just get everything looking good for every thing... This past week, my dad had eye surgery so I had to take him for that and then also the follow up appt.
Next week, I have a doc appt, and appt with my mom, orthodontist appt for lil man, the last day of school for the kids, a end of the year party/cook out for both kids at different schools on the same day.
Another busy week... let alone, baseball and soccer in the evenings!!
More and more I realize how much I have enjoyed being able to be home and take care of things and always feeling like I am missing out on something with the kids.
It has been on my heart heavy the last couple weeks and even really before that, that I would love to be able to be a stay at home mom... financially I don't know if or how it would be possible. But I am going to pray on it and listen to the Lord speak to me on it. Even if I could only work part time or something I would be happy with that...I just hate always feeling like I am missing out of so much of my kids lives... always feeling like someone else is raising my kids. I want to have a closer relationship with both of my kids. I want them to always feel like they can come to me with anything and that I am always there for them... not that I am too busy or too tired because of work and everything else. I want to be able to be there when they get home from school and be able to help them with their homework, or personal problems that they may be having. I just want to be able to be there more for them.
I really need to figure things out... financially... emotionally... and spiritually. I need to meditate on it and put it all in God's hands and see what he has planned for me.
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
Thursday, May 23, 2013
New Season of Life
Well.. I am on to a new season of my life.
As of last Friday I am unemployed... the first time I have been unemployed since I was like 15/16 years old!! After working for the same company for the past 9 years... its definetely a change.
So... for now.. I am just taking life a day at a time... Letting God have complete control of my future. Letting Him guide me to the next part of my life.... and I am super excited to see where it goes and what He has in store.
Baseball and Soccer season has started. So life has been filled with that... at least the evenings and the weekends. lol. Its so fun watching the kids out there having fun and kicking butt. :-)
My boyfriend and I are having a cook out for memorial day on Sunday... so I have been trying to get the yard and the house looking presentable for that... thank goodness its cooled down today... its been so hot the last few days that I had hardly any energy to get anything done... which really sucked. :-( but today I plan on getting a ton done.
Alright.. off to get the chores done for the day!!!
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
As of last Friday I am unemployed... the first time I have been unemployed since I was like 15/16 years old!! After working for the same company for the past 9 years... its definetely a change.
So... for now.. I am just taking life a day at a time... Letting God have complete control of my future. Letting Him guide me to the next part of my life.... and I am super excited to see where it goes and what He has in store.
Baseball and Soccer season has started. So life has been filled with that... at least the evenings and the weekends. lol. Its so fun watching the kids out there having fun and kicking butt. :-)
My boyfriend and I are having a cook out for memorial day on Sunday... so I have been trying to get the yard and the house looking presentable for that... thank goodness its cooled down today... its been so hot the last few days that I had hardly any energy to get anything done... which really sucked. :-( but today I plan on getting a ton done.
Alright.. off to get the chores done for the day!!!
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Happy Mother's Day
Happy Mother's day to all the wonderful mom's out there.... and also to all of the father's out there that have the role of both mom and dad.
I hope ya'll feel as blessed as I do on this day today!!!
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
I hope ya'll feel as blessed as I do on this day today!!!
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
Monday, May 6, 2013
Weekend
We had an absolutely amazing weekend!! We celebrated lil mans bday on Friday night with a sleep over with a couple of his friends. It was a fun night! We had a cook out and tons of snacks for them. We had a fire and smores. 
They jumped/wrestled on the trampoline. Played xbox,. Wrestled in the house. And surprisingly didn't make as big of a mess as I expected. :-)
After that we went up to the park and played for a bit until the one kid's mom came to pick him up. The other kid ended up staying another night. :-)
Saturday night my boyfriend Brett cooked us spaghetti for dinner and then we loaded up his van with pillows and blankets and headed off to the drive in movie theater to watch Iron Man 3 and Oz. Which we only end up watching Iron Man 3.. or I should say baby girl and myself only ended up watching the movie cuz all the boys were out cold!! So after the first movie we packed back up and headed home again.
Sunday we went to church and then afterwards Brett invited his buddy over for a cook out. His buddy ended up cooking for us! :-) It was nice to have company and just sit back and relax some! After dinner we took the kids to the park and I ended up meeting most of Bretts family.
We came home and Brett cleaned my house for me!!! I got a load of laundry into the washer, packed lunches and got baby girl tucked into bed for the night. Lil man stayed up playing xbox and then brett went and played with him for a bit! I seriously was in awe!!
But now its back to reality.
Hope ya'll have a great Monday and a great week!!! I know mine is jammed packed, between baseball, getting things for the roof of my garage to be repaired, finish up birthday shopping, and taking lil man out to get his baseball pants, cleats, and socks, AND celebrating Lil Man's birthday at some point... lol. Fun Filled day!!! :-)
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
Friday, May 3, 2013
Realization Friday
Its been way too long!!!
I have like 3 different posts started and stuck in draft. UGH. I would say maybe this weekend I will finally sit down and finish them up... but yea.. who am I kidding. I doubt I will have any free time and if I do, Ill be wanting to nap!!!
But anyway... I figured I can at least start- and finish a realization friday post... since its been forever since I've posted and even longer since I've done a realization post. :-)
I have come to realize that:
~ I am addicted to caramels!
~ God has finally brought an absolutely amazing man into my life.
~ I can not stop picking my fingers!! ugh.
~ I feel so blessed!!!
~ I have two absolutely wonderful kids!
~ I have no idea what I would do with out my mom and my stepdad in my life.
~ I had no idea that my neighbor was as awesome as he's shown he is.
~ Sometimes when it feels like relationships are changing that maybe its time to take a step back for a minute and re-evaluate things.
~ I have become very forgetful lately.
~ This is going to be an insane weekend.
I hope everyone has an amazing weekend!!!
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
I have like 3 different posts started and stuck in draft. UGH. I would say maybe this weekend I will finally sit down and finish them up... but yea.. who am I kidding. I doubt I will have any free time and if I do, Ill be wanting to nap!!!
But anyway... I figured I can at least start- and finish a realization friday post... since its been forever since I've posted and even longer since I've done a realization post. :-)
I have come to realize that:
~ I am addicted to caramels!
~ God has finally brought an absolutely amazing man into my life.
~ I can not stop picking my fingers!! ugh.
~ I feel so blessed!!!
~ I have two absolutely wonderful kids!
~ I have no idea what I would do with out my mom and my stepdad in my life.
~ I had no idea that my neighbor was as awesome as he's shown he is.
~ Sometimes when it feels like relationships are changing that maybe its time to take a step back for a minute and re-evaluate things.
~ I have become very forgetful lately.
~ This is going to be an insane weekend.
I hope everyone has an amazing weekend!!!
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
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