This morning

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2012 Resolutions

So every year I always make New Year Resolutions.  2010. I kept all of them!! Last year… yyyeeeeaaaaa….. not so much. I did NONE. L So this year!! I WILL keep and do all of my resolutions!! J

This is what I got for this year:

*** Pay off all medical bills

*** Get more organized. Home/Work/Life

*** Get closer to God- give him the control

*** Get the pics of the clothes I got to sell and get them up on a Website to sell!

*** Start a journal for God

*** Declutter EVERYTHING in my life… from my house, garage, car, purse, friends, facebook.  Everything. 

*** Blog More.. and blog with more pics.  Make this blog more of a timeline of my life… not just blips here and there.

*** Gym time! Make time at least 3-4x a week. Get my body to where I am happy and confident- naked. (not that I will be walking around naked or anything… but I want to be able to look in the mirror and see myself and think. Damn. I look good for 2 kids and 30yrs old.)

So – wish me luck!!

Do you have any resolutions??

Blessing N Love

Overthinking Mama 

why do i blog?

 I was asked the other day Why do I blog?   I wasn’t really sure how to answer that.  Its not for one certain reason or another.

I started blogging about 4 years ago. I have a lot of family out of state that isn’t able to be apart of my daily life with my kids.. so I started a Family Website.  Shortly after I started that, the website got shut down. So after a little bit of research I found out about the whole world of blogging!! So I then decided to do a family blog, dedicated to all things to do with my family… the ups and the downs.   Then after reading a few more blogs I got the motivation to start a “diary” of sorts. Where I talked about being a single mom, dating, guy issues, girl issues and sex.  In 2010 I decided to buy a domain name and merge all my blogs together… and now we have www.overthinkingmama.com!! J

So why do I blog now??

I guess its for a whole bunch of different reason. Mainly I guess cuz some days I just feel this need to write. Even it ifs about absolutely nothing.. I just feel this desire or need to type something out… almost like an addiction. Lol. I crave feeling the keyboard under my fingers… the click click click as I type my thoughts on to the screen, sometimes not even knowing whats going to come out of the words that I am writing. Lol.   Sometimes I feel God calling me to write about something in my life… I have been thru a few different things and have managed to get thru them all.. from being $20,000 in debt, being a single mom,  being cheated on, dealing with an ex drug addict/ alcoholic, being hit, being emotionally abused and a lot more…  that I feel like sometimes I need to get my story out there… just so maybe.. just maybe someone else won’t feel like they are alone with whatever it is that they are going through.  I also use my blog as a way of documenting my life and my kids life.  I have the first few years printed out and plan on doing the rest eventually and have it all in a binder. That way I can go back and see where I was at a cetain time of my life. Where my mindset was at, what kids were doing etc…   I also do this as a relief. I feel better after I type up a blog post.  It’s a stress reliever.. even if what I am writing about isn’t what is stressing me out at that moment.  

I love blogging. I love writing.  I love the people that I have “met” thru this and the other people that I have come to know thru their blogs.  I think this is an awesome way of expressing yourself and putting yourself out there for others to get to know. I am a very shy and reserved person… so this is my outlet. This is my way of letting go where I feel like I can’t in real life.  This is my sanity at times.

Blessings N Love

Overthinking Mama.

Saturday night

Saturday night.. baby girl, my bff, Fajitas and margaritas. What could be better?! Maybe if my new man was with us?! :-)

Blessings n love
Overthinkingmama

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Realization Friday

Yay!! Its Realization Friday!!

Here we are having our first REAL snow storm of the year! All I want to do it grab my kids, head home, light some candles, watch a movie and snuggle up with them on the couch.  But… those plans are going to have to hold off till at least tomorrow.  

Tonight, lil man is heading to his dads for the weekend and baby girl and I are heading over to a new beau’s J to hang out for a bit.. 

But anywho… Here are my realization for the week. Didn’t get any help this week L. Oh well.

This week I have come to realize:

~  that I want to get closer and closer to my Lord!

~  that working out everyday during the work week- kicks your  butt!!

~  that I love working out!

~  that life, love and realationships don’t always go as planned.

~  calling someone 3days in a row, leaving voicemails and not getting a call back is super annoying.

~  that I don’t like a lot of Lady Antebellum songs.  They kinda depress me. And Adelle.. sorry she just annoys me anymore.

~   not everyone in life is going to have the same beliefs as you but it is not your place to judge them but to be open about them and realize – to each their own.

~   that putting my life into God’s hands, praying continuously and letting him direct me is the best choice I have ever made with my life.

Hope ya’ll have a wonderful weekend!

Blessings N Love

Overthinking Mama 

a struggle

Its been 4 years now…  and I still look back and have no idea how I made it.   I’ve had friends come and ask me for advice… how did I manage and all I can tell them is by Gods grace I was able to some how survive.

When my daughter was just 6 months old, her father and I split up.  It was mutual… yet not. Lol. I knew deep down it was what was best because we just weren’t happy, but deep down, I didn’t want it.    Any who…

Financially… I was screwed.  I was so indebt from being with him and him being unemployed for 10 months. During which time I was on maternity leave having our daughter and it was also over Christmas. So everything in our life got put on MY credit cards.  When he left. That was it. No help. They were my problem.  $20,000 in debt.  Now MY debt. I joined Incharge Debt solutions and got on a payment plan with them.

This is where I was then.  I brought home $790 a pay. Every two weeks. 

These were my monthly bills:

House $750

Car $293

InCharge $344

Gas $65

Electric $65

Water $45

Sitter $400

Phone $60

Insurance $120

Total: $2141.00 a month.  I brought home $1580.00   CS- $400.00 a month.

Yea… No where close to being equal. And this didn’t include food, clothes or anything else in our life.

Till this day… I have no idea how I survived. I don’t know how I made ends meet. And there were even a few months where I paid my ex’s bills because he didn’t have the money to and they were still in my name.

The Lord helped me thru it. That is the only way I could have survived it all and not lost my car or my house or my sanity.   People ask how I got thru… God. Prayer. And Faith. That’s it.  At that time tho, I didn’t even realize I had that much faith. I mean I knew I did…. But not that in depth of faith… The Lord got me thru. The Lord provided for me.  He made life possible for me. 

 So right now, if you are struggling… don’t give up… pray a little bit harder.. know that God sees you. He’s there beside you. He loves you!

Blessings N  Love

Overthinkingmama

Realization Friday

Its Realization Friday time… I am sorry its been so long since I’ve posted. Just so much going on and no motivation… I am going to try and change that this weekend. Hopefully. J

I actually had help this week with my realizations!!!  Thank you!!! 

This week I have come to realize:

~ that when a great person comes into your life and makes you feel great… you tend to forget all the good feelings anyone else ever made you feel.

~  that’s its hard for some people to be honest.

~ that it seems that no one thinks that I work… and that I can take care of whatever it is they need.

~  that men suck

~  that my life could be so much worse

~ that just because a movie has two huge actors in it doesn’t mean its going to be good.

~ that I am never going to be happy till I am happy with myself.

~  That my ex will never get his shit together and it makes me really sad.

~  that my parents are always going to tell me to get rid of my dogs.

~ that it seems crazy and too good to be true.. but I am letting go and falling in love with him.

~ that I seriously have slacked with the blog the last few weeks.. I need to get on that.

I hope ya’ll have a great weekend.  I am looking forward to tonight. The man that I am interested is coming over. I am really excited for that!  Then we are going out with a bunch of friends for a going away type gathering for my sis. She’s gotta go back to Cbus after being here for 2 months. L

Blessings N Love

Overthinking Mama