the count down...

It is the final week as a "single" woman.

I am getting married on Saturday.

and truth be told... I am a little scared!!

Not so much of the wedding or any of that- tho yea, I am worried that things will go wrong but thats part of life. lol

I am scared of the unknown. Scared that things will change once we say I Do.  Scared that temptation will get the better of us and cheating will happen.  

I don't want to get married, just to end up in divorce again. I've been there. Its not good.

I am worried that I won't be good enough as a wife.

I have this fear that "karma" will come back and bite me in the butt since I cheated on my first husband... that I divorced him... that I didn't try with him.  That because I hurt him so badly, that I will end up being hurt too.

B is an amazing man.  I now he wouldn't do anything to hurt me, yet. yet, I still am sitting here worried.  I guess I worry because of my past.  Because of my insecurities.

I have to put it all in God's hands.  I have to give all my worry and concern over to Him. He is the one in control. He is the one who will be by me no matter what.  I need to believe that no matter what happens, He will be with me, and will work everything out for His good.

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama