A December to Remember-Part 1

Our December to Remember starts on Thanksgiving! We try and stay busy with different Christmas activities until actual Christmas!  

Celebrating Renbugs 9th birthday! Where did the time go?? 

These were from just One day!!  We went and had Tea with Grami (my mom) for Renbugs birthday. Its a tradition we have been doing for years now.  Afterwards we went out to Cleveland for their tree lighting and then we went to the Carlisle Reservation for the Holiday walk and train ride.  It was such a fun and wonderful day!  We defenetly were exhausted by the time we went to bed! 

Madybear loves our Elf!! 

Admiring the Christmas tree... in toddler talk- trying to figure out which ornament to play with first! 

It really was an amazing day!!  Really hoping the girls remember it all for years to come!!! 


Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

Frustrated

I have been trying for the last hour to upload pics so that I could write a nice long blog post... but ugh!!! of course my computer is running super duper slow, and I have run out of time. 

Stay tuned for that nice post! lol!- A December to Remember!

Today is a crazy hectic day. I start my 4th job today. lol. Yes that is right, I said 4!!!  And I am working 3 of them today!! 

First its the church... then to the office of another where I am starting today- going to be doing marketing or something- still not sure about all the details. And then tonight at the grocery store my husband works at- I work in the bakery.  *phew* a long day. But my babies and family is worth it. Ya do what ya have to do in order to have a decent Christmas!  

Things have been hectic and crazy and I have been an emotional wreck lately. But I know God's got this! And everything will be alright!! 

Anywho- I need to head off to the next place... 

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

:-(

I am not really sure what is going on with me this week.
I have no energy. No motivation. I seriously just want to sleep. I feel so overwhelmed with everything in life right now.
I just started a second part time job. Its in the evenings. So my hubby will be home with the kids while I am at work. I already dread it, and its only been one day!  I don't know whats going on with me.
I just want to curl up into a ball and bawl my eyes out.
Just seems like lately its one thing after another after another.  Always something coming apart or not working out right! I just want to scream!  I so need a break or a vacation or something!!!
I feel like all I do is work and clean.
I feel like a failure in everything that I do. I can't provide enough for my family anymore.  Even with working 3 jobs... and doing all the "home party" businesses... just doesn't seem to be enough.
I am just so frustrated. I feel like there is no end.
I seriously just want to sleep the days away. :-(

Random

I have been wanting to write something for the longest... but each time, I can't figure out what I want to write.  Same thing with today... I have no idea what to write. But I figured that I would at least sit down and start typing and hope that something just comes out. 

The kids have started back to school this week. Man has the time flown by!!! Summer went by so quick and yet there is a part of me that is relieved that school is back in. We are back on a set schedule and maybe- just maybe I can keep my house just a little bit cleaner (doubt it) since my two big girls are like walking tornados! lol  

It's hard to believe that my first born is a 8th grader this year... Next Year- HIGH SCHOOL!!!!  It just seems unreal. Before I know it Baby Lily will be in high school and I will probably have grandbabies!!! 

First day of school went pretty good for all the kids. Ren said it was random. lol whatever that means. Sami got put on the wrong bus, apparently they didn't update their information in the last 2 years and she was sent home to her previous address before she came to live with us!! I was so ticked off!!!! I seriously was almost in tears! 

My husbands great-aunt passed away Tuesday morning so my whole week has been throw off with that. My husband and his family have been in my thoughts all week.  I was supposed to meet with a lady today about signing up with Tealightful... but I completely forgot. UGH! Hopefully will be able to catch up next week. 

I have been trying to go through everything in our house and downsize!!! We just have way way way too much stuff with all the kids... and its just too much in our little house.  

My mom and I have been talking about opening up a thrift store... so hopefully I will be able to put all the extra stuff I have aside to get that started up.  I have been posting a lot of it on Facebook trying to sell it... but that hasn't worked out too well. :-( 

Alright... I need to get back to finishing up everything that needs done!! 

Blessings N Love

Overthinking Mama

After the birth...

Well I had my baby girl on June 15!  I will be posting her birth story here in the next few days... I may also post my other babies birth stories also.... :-) 

Today I want to mention all the wonderful things not every one tells you about when/after you have a baby!!! 

First- right after you have your baby... you are not done. You still have to deliver the placenta. And if you have difficulty doing this- the doc shoves her hand up inside of you elbow deep and tried to help pull that lovely sucker out.  Nothing feels better than having an arm shoved up inside of you in a place that you never really thought an arm could go... and doing it with out anesthesia or pain meds... is oh so much better. 

Second- every time you stand up or go to the bathroom- you will pass clots... some small and barely noticeable, some huge like the size of your fist.  It was music to my ears every time I sat down on the toilet and hear plomp plomp plomp and looked in and saw this huge liver looking chunk floating or sinking in my pee.  Also greatness is when you go to stand up and you have gush of blood decide to come flowing out like a waterfall... soaking the whole pad and your gown and your leg and the floor.  And the pads??!!! Yea they are for a giant!!!  Between the "special" underwear they give you that looks more like a fishnet and the huge pads that are big enough i could have wrapped my baby like a burrito in and still had room left over- you feel like you are wearing a diaper... a not very secure diaper cuz obviously you leak right out of it. 

Third- when you are breast feeding or even just pumping... It feels like someone is ripping the nipple right off of your breast. They say you will get used to it and it won't hurt for that long... I didn't wait to find out. I switched to bottle feeding. 

Fourth- Your tummy will still look like you are pregnant at least a week or two after you have the baby... and best believe, it will be pointed out that you still look pregnant or questioned if you are pregnant. My husband and my 8year old daughter are great at that!  At least once a day I got the whole you still look pregnant mommy and then she would poke my tummy.  Thanks dear. I go from feeling like I have an overgrown watermelon in my stomach to a mushy cantaloupe and nothing is actually in there anymore. 

Fifth- A few days after you give birth- your milk will come in...  this means your boobs will grow about 2-3 cup sizes and be as hard as a rock.  It will hurt like you have never felt before. If you can actually sleep during this excruciating pain- when you wake up your boobs will be shaped in whatever position you slept in. You can take your bra off and your boobs will not move. at. all.  Other than the swollen nipples and the leaking nipples- you could actually go bra less... I mean if it didn't hurt to even put a shirt on.  Oh and best believe your husband or significant other will think its hilarious to poke, squeeze or try to jiggle them... even tho it feels like he is ripping them off. Its hilarious!!! Oh and this will last 24-48hours!!! So enjoyable. 

That is all I can think of right now... oh that's another thing... the mommy brain starts to set in... where it takes you 5 minutes to complete a sentence because you can't remember the words that you were just going to say.  Everything takes a few extra minutes to think of... you call your kids all by the wrong names... and trust me a 13year old boy doesn't like to be called by his baby sisters name... or the dogs. lol.  Neither does your husband! 

Showering, doing your hair or make up, or even just eating a whole meal is a luxury... so is sleeping. 

But when its all said and done... I wouldn't trade any of it...  Nothing is greater than holding my baby and looking into her eyes and feeling that intense love that only a mother can feel. 

Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

almost there

Almost there. Only a few more days and I will be induced. I am counting down the days. I am exhausted, uncomfortable, in a crabby mood, and just overall done.

I am really hoping that once I have this baby... my mood will start to go back to normal. I am so tired of being tired. I am so tired of feeling crabby all the time. I seriously would love to just sleep the days away. It would be easier than dealing with life right now.

I keep hoping that if I can get my house cleaned up... I will feel better... yet... I can't seem to get it cleaned. I have no energy or motivation. It just seems like too much work!!  I will start and then I have to take a break because I am tired or hurting... and then I want a nap.  

I know God is with me. I know He is guiding me. I know He is carrying me along when I need it.
Only a few more days. And then there will be a whole new set of obsticals to overcome...

I am scared to death with having two babies!! Two sets of diapers... bottles... crying!!!  Along with 2 little girls who are at the stage where they want to argue with each other and a teenage boy. (need I say more about him!)

I have been up and out of bed for an hour... ONE HOUR and I am already ready for a nap. I woke up at 4am and cleaned the family room a little, and the kitchen a little. I couldnt do too much since I had two little girls sleeping on the couch.

Alright... I am going to get off here, Do some laundry... dishes... cleaning. Fun. Fun. Fun.


Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama

2 more weeks

I have less than two weeks left till I will be induced... and I am so done!!! I don't know if I will be able to make it till the 15th with out losing my mind!!!   

I am exhausted... in every single possible way... 

I haven't hardly slept at all the last 2 weeks. 
I don't have much of an appetite.
I am having contractions like crazy. 
It hurts whenever the baby moves. 
My house is trashed. I have no energy to clean. 
I feel like a failure in so many ways. 
I have no patience. I am wanting to go off on everyone all the time. I am so frustrated.  
I am miserable. 

There is a big part of me that wants to go to the hospital and beg them to induce me. I am that miserable. I just want to not be uncomfortable anymore. I want to feel somewhat normal. I want to be able to do a load of laundry with out straining and being in pain.   I beg God every single day to let my water break. 

I know its all in his timing. I am trying to have patience... but right now... I think my patience is hiding from me till the baby is born! lol

I am trying to figure out what to do when I get off work and go home... nap or clean. 

Big B started remodeling the girls room yesterday... its a big ole mess... Idk when he will actually finish it... but as of right now... the girls can't sleep in there... I can't put anything in there.. I can't do anything.  
Our church blessed us with so many diapers and wipes and baby items.. and they are all sitting out in my family room. I can't even put them away.  I want to go crazy!!! 

I just feel like its a never ending battle. One I use all my energy to "almost" complete... just to be back at the begining again.   Ugh!!! 

2 more weeks... 

2 more weeks... 


Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama