Tuesday, December 9, 2008

truthfully

I think it is hilarious... how we ask someone a question... but we really know we wont get a truthful answer.. why do we even bother asking...

Like for example:
you ask you man - are you cheating on me?
Seriously! Do you think he is going to tell you the truth? How many people out there when asked that question would admit to it?
or you ask- do you love me?
do you find me attractive?
do i look fat?
do you think she's prettier than me?

Most people are not going to answer these questions honestly. Because if they did... it would a- hurt the person askings feelings and b- would start an argument or some kind.

Yet, we still ask them... even knowing that we are being lied to, for some sort of reasurrance.
and we ask again and again and again...
because we need the reasurrance- even if it is fake.

12/08/08

Today was alright... I was over tired and over crabby! lol. Not a good mix with kids!

It was a stressful day at work and I have some personal issues I am trying to work thru and manage.
Afterwork I went and picked up S. She forgot her babydoll at the sitter, so I had to run back there and get that for her. Went to pick up P from my dads. He didnt want to leave... so I had to argue with him about that... And he didnt do his homework, like I had asked him to do before I got there. Finally got both kids loaded into the car and head home.
As we walked in the car, my friend arrived to bring our Christmas tree. This was the first time my kids had ever me my friend A and P was excited but of course S was scared out of her mind. So she came running to me and wouldnt let me put her down for anything.
While A was bringing in the tree I kept telling P to sit down and do his home work... He kept having to do something... this or that... or needed me to read part of his homework to him. I kept telling him just to do what he could first then, when I was done, i would help with the rest. Well that wasn't good enough and he wasn't going to do it at all.
My friend T showed up to pick up some Christmas decorations that I had for her, and we started talking and she was explaining things going on in her life and over an hour went by. It was 8 oclock and my kids still hadn't ate dinner, did homework, have a bath and it was already bed time!!! So I yelled for P to come and do his homework, and of course he had to play like he didn't know how to do anything! Didnt know his days of the week, didnt know how to write a date (yet has been doing this for over a month now) Then he couldn't find a pencil that worked or anything else to write with and he didn't want to use a pen! So I was finally completley frustrated and told him fine... dont do your homework you can just go to bed, and get in trouble at school tomorrow for not having it done and then you will get in trouble at home for being in trouble at school! So finally he sat down and started doing it. I was trying to get dinner together for them and get S situatied in her seat and started to eat. While I was doing that my friend A came in and started helping P with his homework... It was hilarious. P acted like he didn't have a clue on how to do things... I just kept my mouth shut, at least it wasn't an argument. I got S into bath and then ready for bed. P got dinner and some hot cocoa compliments of A.
By 930... I was exhausted... both kids in bed... P sound asleep, S singing in her crib. I was vegged out in a dark family room sitting on my couch.
I hope Tuesday is better. (even tho tuesdays are always tired days for me!)

Whoops...

Yea... think the semi forgot something...

Monday, December 8, 2008

Appointment

I finally got an appointment for P to see a doc...

Its for the 16th.

Ill post how it went.

12/5-12/7/2008

The weekend was pretty good.
P went with his father for the weekend, from Friday till Sunday. I missed him a lot.
S went to dinner with Grammy and Grampy Friday night, I went out with a friend to a comedy show. It was a lot of fun.
Sat morning we both were up bright and early, I had a breakfast meeting that I had to attend. S did really good there. We went home and tried to nap. Unfortunately, S's idea of a nap was finding a black crayon and coloring all over her closet door. :-( She then went over to Nani and Papi's for a bit while I went on an appointment for Primerica. I went and picked her up and me and her went to Mc'ds for dinner. It was nice. I then took her back to Nani and Papi's and she stayed the night there.
Sunday S's father came over to spend the day with her. I think she enjoyed it... (I was irritated most of the day! but hey... I guess that comes with that!) It was nice to spend the day with S. We went shopping and then put up Christmas decorations. She kept looking and going oooohhh...
P's father dropped him off Sunday evening. When we went home, he wanted to watch a movie with me because he missed me all weekend. So I said ok, so after I got S into bed, we watched part of the movie. I ended up falling a sleep and of course that wasn't aloud so P woke me up and said Mommy you fell asleep you said you would watch this with me. I told him I was sorry, I was just really tired. He got a lil mad and said you lied just like Daddy did. He fell alseep during a movie too! lol.

I decided it was time for bed then.
We went to bed. and P got to sleep in bed with me.
about 330 S decided she wanted in bed too... So she came in... that lasted bout 2hrs, with her laughing and talking and wanting to play. So I got frustrated and put her back in her bed...
Didn't get much sleep last nite.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Insurance.

I am getting frustrated.

I called a few different place to find out about getting P tested for ODD.

And I keep getting that they are out of Network, that I need to call the employer and get it opened up to be approved or something like that.

My ex-husband had P on his insurance. And I really dont want to get him involved more than he has to be. I am not sure how he will react to the fact that I want to get him tested. I guess I am afraid that he will deny that there is anything wrong and try and fight me on getting him tested.

Oh well, I guess I will be calling the insurance company.

12/4/08

Yesterday was another good day.

P was on green at school. On the way home we went and got some crickets for our frog Bubba.

He was happy to have food.. and it was so interesting to feed him! lol.

P went to my moms afterschool. When I got off work and went over there for supper, she had said that he was great. Very loving, listened really good, didn't argue, just wonderful! But of course that all changed when I got home. It makes me feel so worthless that he can act so good with her, then as soon as I show up- he's wild and crazy.

S was more happy to see her brother than she was to see me! lol! She was hungry and scarfed down her meal... P coulda cared less, and as usual made more problems for himself. Food was too hot, didnt want this.. etc.

After dinner we went home and I cleaned up a lil bit. S played and P did his homework. Afterward S went to bed (which of course she got up 3 or 4x). P and me watched a movie together and snuggled about a hour and a half in, P looks at me and says, mommy I am tired. I want to go to bed. I told him alright. So we turned the movie off and went and tucked him in and said his prayer.

It was a good night. Started out a lil bit rocky but it ended good.

I was proud of the fact that he knew he was tired, and had to get up early in the morning for school, so he should go to bed.

He goes to his dad's this weekend. I will miss him.