Monday, January 31, 2011

Project 31- Day 3

Day 3.  Who is someone you know who inspires beauty?


The first people that come to mind with this question is my kids.  They inspire me to be beautiful. Not just physically but spiritually.  They are the reason I can go on each and every day.  They help me to see the beauty in life and especially in love.

Someone that inspires me also, though I have never met is Sonya. Some how we have became friends on facebook but still for the life of me, I have no idea how.  I follow her blog.  Everyday she has something wonderful posted on her facebook status. I hope that oneday I can be that optimistic and that spiritual J

Another set of people is my family- my parents and especially my brother.  My brother is mentally handicapped.  He is 17 years older than me but has the mindset of between a 3-7yr old and the body of 45yr old. I love him dearly.
my 18th bday with my brother

I think the biggest inspiration I have though is my love for Christ. Because of this love and the knowledge of His love for me, I am able to see the beauty in everything.  From the snow falling, to the ants crawling across my kitchen floor, to the gentle breeze… Its all beautiful.  J


God Bless
Overthinking Mama

Friday, January 28, 2011

Realization Friday

Its Friday ya’ll… you know what that means…

Its realization time… these are things that have been realized by myself and other’s throughout the week J


I’ve Come To Realize:

~ Life sucks.

~ God works in great ways and has things happen just at the right time.

~ Sometimes things are not always as  bad as you think they are.

~ And sometimes they are.

~ Facebook is for losers who have nothing else better to with their time.

~ Algebra can be so overwhelming, especially when you teacher goes way to fast!!!

~ God is wonderful!


Make sure you keep on sending in your realizations!! Overthinkingmama at gmail.com


God Bless
Overthinking Mama

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Project 31- Day 2






She Breathes Deeply




Day 2.  What makes you uniquely you?


This is a hard one. What makes me, me???  ME and the LORD!!  Lol. 

I think I am different than most people because of my brain and my heart.  As you probably know from my blog, I overthink. Everything.  And honestly 90% I do love this about myself though that other 10% about drives me insane, but hey it gives me something great to blog about normally!! Lol. 

The other part is my heart.  I love whole heartedly so I am easily hurt.  I forgive people I probably should and remain friends even after being betrayed.  I am opened minded enough to be friends with just about everyone, even ex’s, ex’s ex’s or even current bf’s ex’s.  I can’t just love a little. I love a lot.  

God made us all special and it takes a big heart, an open mind, and wide eyes to be able to see it all.  I like to think I have all 3.


God Bless
Overthinking Mama

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

domination is everything...

My female Chihuahua showing Edward who's the big dog...
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Monday, January 24, 2011

Project 31- Day 1



She Breathes Deeply


Day 1.  What does beauty mean to you?


HHHmmmm… what does beauty mean to me?!
Beauty is a sunset or a sunrise.
Beauty is a flower swaying in the breeze.
Beauty is a child running up just to say “I love you mommy”
Beauty is a friend always being there just when you need them to be.
Beauty is a truth and honesty.
Beauty is a warm bubble bath, a good book, and a glass of wine.
Beauty is a kind, loving personality.
Beauty is being faithful, whole heart and soul.
Beauty is praying.
Beauty is storm clouds rolling in.
Beauty is a dog licking your cheek.
Beauty is a skinned knee and being there to kiss it and make it all better.
Beauty is snuggling up with my kiddos and watching a great movie
Beauty is sitting on the couch with my kiddos reading the bible.
Beauty is the first kiss.
Beauty is the last kiss.
Beauty is realizing that God made everything beautiful.
Beauty is seeing that beauty in everything.
Beauty is being hurt and lonely.
Beauty is knowing that God is always with you, even when you are hurt and lonely.
Beauty is knowing that God knew us before we were even conceived.
Beauty is love.
Beauty is life.
Beauty is more than what we see but what we feel and who we are.
Beauty is loving the Lord.
Beauty is friendship.
Beauty is a letter in your mailbox/inbox.
Beauty is YOU.
Beauty is ME.


God Bless
Overthinking Mama 

Friday, January 21, 2011

Realization Friday

Its that time again kiddos…. Iiiiiiiiittttttt’sssss REALIZATION Friiiidaaaayyy!!! 
Ok.. I know its not that exciting… but yea… J
Remember these are not all my realization but some that have been sent it! Enjoy!!
And ps. Email me your realization for next weeks post!!

I’ve Come To Realize:

~there is always a silver lining...life is about attitude...and knowing when you can get away with cussing...

~i would think i knew more for being so old...

~that somethings will come to an end eventually, even when you are not sure you want them to

~ that I have a really hard time not getting emotion when reading or watching a movie

~ that Jillian Michael’s and the 6 week 6 Pack is NO JOKE!!! 

~ that I suck at staying with a work out program

~ that this past week has been an insanely busy one. Here’s hoping next week is more organized

~ God does work in wonderous yet sometimes mysterious ways

~ getting a headache every single day really sucks monkey butt

~ that some people just love drama.. and try to cause it and add to it

~ that I am normally the one stuck in the middle of everything because I don’t take sides.

~ always being neutral sucks

~ that God loves me.  Just like my names means and my tattoo says- God’s Princess

Happy Friday Ya’ll!!!

God Bless
Overthinking Mama 

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Closer

I have so many thoughts running through my head today… well actually the last few days.   I have been talking to a new friend about our walks with Christ and its just been wonderful. I feel like I am closer to the Lord.  I feel like I am more intune with him right now.  Its crazy.  I am so happy and so in love with the Lord. Just thinking about it, makes my heart skip a beat!! 

This morning I woke up around 3am when my daughter had to go potty. I remember looking at the clock thinking man its too early… I just want to go back to sleep, but maybe I’ll get up with my alarm and read the bible. I haven’t done that in awhile. I clearly heard the Lord tell me that he would help me.   I laid down and slept till my alarm went off at 630. I hit the snooze and laid back down. Just 5 more minutes. I clearly heard the Lord say I’ll wake you at 7am… and don’t ya know, my alarm didn’t go off again till 7am!!  As much as I wanted to hit snooze and go back to sleep ever for just 5 minutes more, I knew I needed to get up and do what I said I would.  And so I did. I read Malachi. I  wanted to stop before I was finished reading because it was getting late and I didn’t want my son to miss the bus, but again I heard the Lord tell me it will be ok. So I finished reading and rushed to get myself and the kids ready. We walked out the door after the normal time to catch the bus… we got to the bus stop and still had enough time to say our morning prayers before the bus showed up. The Lord did as he promised… It was ok.

Not everyday goes this good. Not everyday to I hear the Lord whispering in my ear. And those are the days that I struggle. 
I pray that my ears and my heart will continue to open to hear the Lord.

I am finishing up The Shack. It has been such a great. I definitely recommend reading it to help get a different and better grasp on God.  
I also picked up Lecrae- Rehab: The Overdose. I love Lecrae. I love Rehab so I had to have Overdose… I still love Rehab more… but Overdose is great!!  J

God Bless
Overthinking Mama 

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Amiyha

January 19. My sister’s daughter’s birthday.  She would be 7.  4 ½ years ago her life came to a sudden halt and she went to spend eternity with the Lord.   

My sister isn’t my sister by blood or by marriage but by love.  I came into the family almost 5 years ago.  My daughter’s father and I had been dating for a few months and I was pregnant with his daughter. His family lived down in North Carolina and I had been down there once and met his 2nd oldest daughter, his mom, step dad, brother and niece and nephews.  Amiyah was only 2 years old. The whole time I was there, she wanted me to carry her.  I was very happy to.  The visit was short and we soon had to return home.  A few months down the road, on a Friday night in August, we received a phone call from my ex’s mom.  He didn’t want to answer but after the 2nd time she called, I made him pick up the phone.  I’m glad I did.  His niece had passed away. She was shot in the head.  My heart broke.  And even as I write this now, I am in tears.  I am not going to get into the whole story today but it was tragedy what will forever affect this family. 
As soon as we got that phone call, we started making plans to go down to N.C. The next morning we were on the road. Dropped my son off with my mom because I really didn’t think this would be good for him- he was 4.  On our way down there, I decided that I was going to name this baby girl that was growing in my belly after our niece.  Her middle name is Amiyah.   
Because of this event, there is a special bond between my sister and me. Even though my ex and I have gone our separate way, I still consider her family.
My heart goes out to her and her son’s today along with the entire family down in North Carolina.  They all are in my thoughts and prayers today.



God Bless
Overthinking Mama 

Wordless Wednesdays-5

Prissy Bella-staying warm

Monday, January 17, 2011

aN aWARD

I was blessed with another award!!



This award completely was unexpected! I received this award from ib at Habitual Hobbit.  I was honored by this follower. I checked out the blog and it  is awesome!!  And he even put my blog button on there!! J I really feel honored. Thank you! 
So word for word this is what is expected of me:

With great power, comes great responsibility, so, as the rules state, I must link back to the award giver, answer some questions, which I will do next, and lastly, I forward this award on to others that I deem worthy.

1. If you blog anonymously, are you happy doing this? If you aren't anonymous, do you wish you started out anonymously, so that you could be anonymous now?

I am anonymous and yet I am not. If you do enough searching you can figure out who I am tho I may not put my full name on this site. I try to keep my kids names as anonymous as possible by giving them nicknames just because well… there are some crazy people out there… sadly..
But my thoughts are by far not anonymous. I write whats in my head and at times close to my heart J

2. Describe an incident that shows your inner stubborn side. 

Hhhmmm..  I guess it’s a stubborn and impatient side… I have a window air conditioner that weights… maybe 40-50lbs.  A friend of mine (male) was supposed to come over and bring it from my garage and then put it into my window.  He was supposed to be there at 6. I had to leave at 630. So at 615 I went out and brought it in and put it in the window myself.  He called 5 minutes after that to tell me he was running late.. I told him don’t bother. Its done! J

3. What do you see when you really look at yourself in the mirror?

Depends on the day and the mood.. Sometimes I see a beautiful princess of the Lord… some times I just seen an aging worn out woman.  

4. What is your favourite summer cold drink?

Fresh squeezed lemonage

5. When you take time for yourself, what do you do?

Read a good book. Candle lit bubble bath. Nice long walk. Shopping

6. Is there something that you still want to accomplish in your life?

I want to own my own business. I want to not have to work for someone else… at least not full time. I want to be happily married.

7. When you attended school, were you the class clown, the class overachiever, the shy person or always ditching?

I am and always have been the shy person. I don’t talk to many people unless maybe they talk to me first… its very hard for me to make friends. L

8. If you close your eyes and want to visualize a very poignant moment in your life, what would you see?

I would have to say the moments when my kids were born.

9. Is it easy for you to share your true self in you blog, or are you more comfortable writing posts about other people and events?

I write about me and my life. I have on occasion wrote about friends/family/events because they have ment something to me, either good or bad.

10. If you had the choice to sit down and read a book or talk on the phone, which would you do and why?

I would rather sit down and read than talk on the phone. I hate talking on the phone. The almost only person I talk to on the phone besides family… is my boyfriend. J

And finally, I need to reward a few other bloggers who I dig and think are worthy. So, here they are in no particular order.







God Bless
Overthinking Mama 



Friday, January 14, 2011

Realization Friday

Some are mine and some are not… enjoy J

I”ve come to realize:


~ Life really sucks at times… but behind all that suckiness is always something good, you just have to take the focus of the sucky to see it J

~ Working out after NEVER working out for 28yr can seriously kick your butt.

          ~ and even thought the work out was only 10minutes long, your entire body can and will be sore

~ Trying to eat healthy only makes you more hungry

~ I haven’t been completely full all week long

~ Men suck




If you want to send me your realizations, please do, and I will post next Friday J

God Bless
Overthinking Mama 

Pay it Forward

Yesterday while going thru my blog reading journey I was checking out Nikki’s blog  Life of a Single Mommy.  She posted about Pay if Forward. I thought this was a great idea. So I decided to join her in this great idea:




I promise to send something handmade 

to the first 3 people who leave a comment here.

To be eligible, you must also post this in your blog,

offering the same thing to 3 other people. 

The rules are that it must be handmade by you and it

must be sent to your 3 people *sometime* in 2011.



I have been wanting to “get crafty” for the longest time… but never can quite seem to have the right motivation. So I am hoping that maybe this will give me the kick in the butt that I need.   
So If you would like to join with me in this, please leave me a comment below with your email address or if you don’t want you addy out there, leave a comment and then email me at overthinkingmama@gmail.com   
(First 3 people to sign up and I receive their mailing addresses)


God Bless
Overthinking Mama

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Guest posting

I  did a guest post over at The Young Mommy Life… make sure you go and check it out!!!



God Bless
Overthinking Mama

Monday, January 10, 2011

its a monday... wahoo.

I want this to be a positive post…even though I am not in the most positive mood. J

I start back to school tomorrow… I am nervous, anxious, and a little excited. I love being busy and having something to do besides go to work and come home. It is also nice to have a schedule.  I went online today to find out about what books are needed and I am completely confused. The syllabus says I need an Algebra book. The college book store says I need a disc. GGRR… I have purchased the book thru Amazon, thou it will not be here until next week (fingers crossed for sooner). I should have been able to use my financial aid to purchase the book thru the college book store, but there was an issue regarding that, so I just went ahead and paid for it L  Oh well… I can sell it in the end.. which I really should go and do with my English books especially since they are just like new J 

I am planning on going grocery shopping tonight after work and dinner. I have my mom to watch the kids because I really don’t like taking them with me and I know they really do not enjoy it either.  I am mainly getting veggies and healthy lunch options for me. I have noticed after Christmas my stomach is getting a little pudgy. I know I am not fat nor that I really need to lose weight. I just want to get toned up and actually get into shape. I haven’t ever worked out for more than a week at a time… I just never had the drive or motivation to do it… I need to though. I am getting older and I don’t want to end up having a mom butt, a baby belly, or love handles. I want to be the “hot” mom!  Plus I would like to have at least one more child after I am married, which who knows when that will be. So I would like my body to be in shape so that I can bounce back from the baby body like I have with the other two pregnancies.

I am also trying to figure out a new approach to my parenting style, because what I am doing right now isn’t working. My oldest (lil man) who is 8 loves to argue and will argue about anything and everything.  I love that he has a voice and an opinion. But when I tell him to do something and he says no because of this and that… or when I tell him he is in trouble for something and he tells me NO he didn’t do it or whatnot. It gets old quick.  I have tried spanking, sending to his room, writing sentences, taking toys away, time out, talking, yelling etc… and nothing seems to get through to him. If you have any suggestions, I am open to them. One thing I have learned that works for the most part, is sometimes Lil Man gets extremely hyper, to the point where its disruptive, rude, obnoxious and at time just plain ole crazy and could end up dangerous. It’s during these times that absolutely nothing works… talking, time outs, redirect… but I have found that the redirect that I can do and works is jumping jacks. 100 to start and it goes up from there depending on the intensity of the hyperness. Normally he calms down a bit… not always completely but normally at least some. And I will repeat as necessary.
I am having issues with my daughter eating. She has become a very picky eater. One day she loves something. The next she hates it.  And meal time has become challenging. So I have started making what I want to make and if she eats, she eats. If not, than she won’t get a treat that night.  This still doesn’t work.  I really am not sure of how to correct this. How do I get a 4yrold to eat at least the majority of her meal… for most meals?? I know she won’t like everything and I don’t expect her to. But how do I keep her from starving herself and eating what I cook??
Thanks for all of your help!!!

God Bless
Overthinking Mama

Sunday, January 9, 2011

poor baby

Edward got injured... one of the other puppies nipped his tail.... there was blood everywhere!
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Friday, January 7, 2011

Realization Friday

Its that time again folks!! 
Realization Friday!! Make sure you send yours in to be posted in next weeks espisode!! J


I’ve Come To Realize:

~ that no matter how I dont want too....I am getting older...I still want to play on the floor and wrestle with my son, and some day I wont be able to do that because he is getting so big. I love the outdoorz and playing paintball...it is getting the other older guys I know to go play too....so I think I hate getting old..

~ that winter sucks royal buttocks.

~ That I am in love with a great great man

~ change can be good… and it can be bad… but in the long run it all works out ok.

~ I am a control freak!!!

~ my job now will never fulfill me the way that I need.

~ my son will always be my son and I will always love him even though he may annoy the crap out of me… same goes for my daughter

~ I really need to get into shape

~ I love changing how I look:



~ I love reading the Postsecrets website every Sunday…

~ I will be so happy when it is finally spring/summer/fall… anything but winter L



Thanks for reading!! J  Have a wonderful and safe weekend!! J 

God Bless
Overthinking Mama 

Thursday, January 6, 2011

mom/son date

I took lil man out bowling last night, just me and him. We don't really get that much alone time with each.other, and def not as much as baby girl and I do. So I like to try and have a one on one day with him once a month just so we can reconnect and have some fun. Just me and him. I've sacked on this the last few months tho but it is something that I plan on doing in the future. We went bowling last night and howled 3 games. It was a lot of fun and of course I beat him which he didn't like very much. But I don't want him to always win, he need to learn how to lose too and its not the end of the world if you do lose. I think he had a lot of fun, I know I did.
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Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Wordless Wednesdays-3

The lil miss princess

thoughts for the day

I feel the Lord around me today…  I feel like he’s lifting me up for something… I am not sure what and maybe that’s all part of this… growing my faith.

I felt Him last night too. I was in the shower and I could feel his presence around me.. like he was hugging me, telling me everything would be alright.

I also heard him tell me… just to be content with everything for now… this will get even better J

I have had this strong feeling that the Lord has something wonderful planned for me… like I truly have a purpose more than just being a woman, a mom, a friend, a daughter, a sister, a salesperson… like He wants me to do something, to spread His blessings.   Though I still don’t really know what it is I am supposed to be doing. I have prayed for this for so long… and I will keep praying until it finally happens.

I do have a longing for change… a different job, different house, different city, something majorly different…. But that also scares me…  I need the job that I have right now. They are wonderful. They are flexible when need be. The pay is exactly what I need to pay my bills. But I do have moments where I feel maybe I need to move on.   A different house… I so would love a bigger home. There so many cute ones a few streets over in a wonderful neighborhood where I have always wanted to live… and they are for sale… but I  don’t have good credit and honestly even if I did because it would be such a bigger house, I don’t know if I could afford just the heat to keep it warm J A different city is just about out… unless it like an adjacent city to where I live now and still close enough that it doesn’t take me forever to get to where I need to be. With my Step mom having lung cancer and my dad not always in the greatest of health, my brother being mentally handicapped and when my parents pass, I will be all he has… I need to stick around here J and even tho sometimes I hate where I live… I hate the cold. The snow. I know I wont be able to leave any time soon… J  So I dunno…

Any who…

Just wanted to type.. so there ya go.. my thoughts for the day. J


God Bless
Overthinking Mama

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

this first monday sucked

The first Monday of the New Year… kicked my butt!! Lol.   I just hope this ain't a prelude to what the future holds for this year.. J or maybe I am just getting all the crappy stuff out of the way??!!! Yea. That’s how I am going to look at it!

My day started out icky at 130 in the morning… when my big dog Edward wouldn’t go to sleep. He kept ringing the bell to be let outside. So I would get up and let him out… 5 min later he was ready to come in… he finally came to bed with me and then I heard it… the preparation throat noises that dogs make right before they throw up. I shoved him off the bed. Just in time!  He threw up all over the flow… 2 huge piles…   I let me back outside… cleaned up the mess.. brought him in.. and put him in the cage.  I didn’t wanna deal with that anymore that night. He threw up once more in the cage. Luckily it was on a blanket so I could just wash that.
When I got up for good (I was up and down all night long) I emailed my work to let them know that I wasn’t going to be in. My friend’s father died and Monday was the funeral. I was going to go. I’ve known her and the family for 16yrs now. They are my family.
Got everyone up and ready and as we were going out the door, baby girl threw up. So there went the funeral.  Got everyone in the car and down to the bus stop. Where we waited. And waited. And waited. The bus didn’t show.  So I drove them to school.  I had to drop my car off to get a remote starter put in, baby girl threw up in the parking lot.  My friend came and picked us up and took us home.  We both lay down and slept. 
I finally got up and started cleaning. I threw my brand new down comforter in the washer… and of course it ripped a huge hole in it. ugh. Feathers everywhere- then I read the tag Dry Clean Only. Wth. King size down comforter that I can’t wash.
Baby girl then threw up on my couch… so had to clean that…  Made her go and lay down instead of following me all over the house. Other than the throwing up- she seemed absolutely fine J
Then after I picked up my car/ got my kids I went and got gas and decided to wash my car because it hadn’t been washed in forever!  So while at the car wash, I decided to get out of my car since I was waiting my turn for the automatic car wash and purchase a wipe to clean the inside of my, from the vending machine on the building. Well as I made my way over there, I slipped on the ice that looked like just wet cement.  Ended up taking my self to the ER because I was in pain. Everything turned out ok… tho I am still in pain and have a headache… oh and there is no contact info on the building nor in the phone book/ Google or 411 nothing…
When I got home from the hospital.. I got to fight with my kids about going home and going to bed…
Fun times Fun times.

God Bless
Overthinking Mama 

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year!

Every year I make a list of Goals for the following year.
Last year the list consisted of:
Look Forward, Not back- mainly meaning stay away from Ex’s (a certain one in particular)
Go To School
Get closer with God- pray more

I have done everything on that list… tho it was simple and I had God’s help with it. J

This year, I am extending my goal list and with God’s help, I will complete all that HE deems I should.

Go to the Gym.
          This means I need to get a membership somewhere and then come out of my shell and actually go and workout where there maybe other people watching me..

Start a paper journal.
          I used to always keep a journal/diary till I had it used against me more times than I’d care to say… sure I was wrong in what I did and what I wrote down but that place was supposed to be sacred. This goal is still up in the air. I still have that fear that what I write maybe used against me at some point or another.

Pay off all my medical bills
          Hello Income Tax refund check… and good bye.

Get more into Christian Yoga
          I need to find a place that has classes for that and/or a school where I could learn to teach it J

Get even closer with God
          Pray more, read the bible more, focus on God and not all the negativity in life

Get baby girls last name changed
          I’ve decided to change her last name to mine from her father’s because she doesn’t hardly know that side of the family and she is not a priority to her father. She knows my family more than anything.. She is MY family name more than her fathers…sadly.

Start a MOM group
          I want to start some kind of group where mom’s can get together and meet and talk about issues with are having in life/kids/job/relationships etc. A safe place where we can relate and know we are not alone.

Work with my mom more to get the coffee shop started
          I have a dream of opening a Christ centered coffee shop. A safe place for individuals, couples and family to gather. J
Start doing something crafty
          And possibly open an etsy shop… but I definetelly want to get crafty J

Buy a bigger house
          This is more of a wish than a goal, but I thought I would throw it on here too… I so want a bigger house but there are a lot of factors thrown in that I need to get fixed/figured out- my credit score, selling/renting my house, finding a house I want etc…

So those are the goals for 2011.  I am looking forward to the new year and the “fresh start” 
My boyfriend will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary in January also. We met last year down in New Orleans at my sister’s wedding. J  I am thinking of planning something special for just the two of us…

Happy New Year!!

God Bless
Overthinking Mama